I am Free

Lefa intro me the song de... enjoy :D

Amazed

Hi ppl, I think it is time to type a few words... So here is a rather nice song.. I would have loved to play this song in the Inside Out camp. However, I might be too late le. So enjoy?? Okie?? :D

Oh lord, I am amazed. I am so amazed by our ways. Our ways are higher, and so interesting... I get a weird disease that I supposed to have the vaccine so that I would rest at home. Lord, I am amazed. But not so with chicky.. :D

Part 2. Alright. I think God is telling me to enjoy his presence. TO see how amazing he is. Maybe you should too?? I was just listen to my itunes...Then it was on shuffle. However, everything I listened to was talking about how amazing God is...So

O'levels Experience..

Wee...... O'levels are finished!! (Nic is mostly likely going to play THE song)

Well, Here is the update on it alright...

Week 1:

One word sums it all. STRESS!! ah!!! ALAMAK!! STRESS SIO, I tell you!!

I had English as the first papper. For my prelims, my English was the worse subject!! :( Then I go take over!! Sigh!! Depressing.. I read the question wrongly. So my English, supposingly free fall. I have no idea if English gone, all gone. HOWEVER, I HAD GOD RECEDING IN ME!! I HAVE A GOD THAT IS IN CONTROL. EVEN IF I SUPER LOUSY (which I am) I WILL TRUST IN HIM!! :D

Then Maths was again depressing.. I was stressing myself out lah!! Keep thinking competing with whole of Spore!! Then you in Hong Kah!! Depressing sio!! I think I did my best. Nah, I did not... But it is again not in my hands.. 20% you 80% God!! So I shall not be depressed!! Coz I wanna enjoy, not fret over my results...

Aiya.. Lets get to the point... I flunked my WHOLE O'levels!! I was sick while doing my Humanities which is my best subject so I flunked it!! But God is in control... I can get 51 points. I think I can but God won't allow such a thing to happen. He loves me, he will be there for me even when I fail him... He is in control of my marks. I shall not fear.

O'levels was a pain in the neck. I never wanted to study, and disaster struck the moment Os started.. My grandmother was admitted into hospital and I did not know till my parents brought me there.. Then she died in that same week. So O'levels, I hate you. I gave up on O'levels. I don't care.. I was grieving even though I was not close to my grandmother. I felt bad not being able to communicate with her. I never tried to learn chinese... and I feel bad.. I don't know whether she even knew she had a grandson that has achieved so much... Nor do I think she knows about this game called soccer.. I felt bad, and I still do.. But it is over.... I shall not weep, but turn and see that there is a huge harvest still out there...

BTW, Os are over but I am lazy to blog le.. Cya :D

Fall in this Place..

Hi dudes.. Hope you like this song... Coz now since my O'levels are over and some of you all are in the holiday mood. This means we got more time on our hands so why not seek God with it rather than wasting it all away...??

I was browsing Youtube, coz my mp3 limited ah.. So youtube does the job... Then I banged head first into this song (If you can"t imagine the banging, just imagine the guy who slashed Darren Ng, then jumped into the pool HEAD FIRST just to escape the police... Ya.. Something like that, nah.. I think that guy more pro..)

Enjoy :D

Prelims.. The Trial of Trust and Faith!!

Hi, I am going to blog this on a serious note coz these few weeks have been wreck for me....

Hm.. The prelims made me fight to not sleep!! It caused me to be over-stressed man!! Well, it has been a battle of emotions, of stress, of tired-ness, of fatigue, of faith and of trust for me sio... Let me elaborate..

Well, the lead-up to the Prelims have been really tough on me.. Firstly, I hate to study!! Secondly, the prelims was the exam my parents would use to see if i deserve my Iphone4.. Oh man!! :( Then this was the first exam I actually bothered to study in the build-up instead of last-min then go and study.. Aiyo. Usually I will study study the day before.. but this time I used my holidays to study!! Wow!! LOL.. But it was not easy studying.. honestly! I was affected my many things... Well, many mishaps and sad events....During the lead-up, my grandmother got admitted into hospital!! I was upset lah.. And you should and will know how I felt if you read the previous few posts.. I was affected, I could not concentrate on my studies!! I was sadden, and unable to concentrate sio.. And so I was thought to fight with my emotional to study hard for my Prelims!!

Then during the Prelims, I needed to fight a fight against fatigue!! Well, I have been staying up rather later these few days. I feel unprepared and since I am taking this exam seriously for once!! I stayed up super late into the night just to mug!!! I have stayed till 2 just to mug and it took its toil on me by the next week... which is week 2. I actually slept in my maths paper!! OMG!! I was really very tired since I was not used to sleeping so late!! And well, by sleeping so late despite revising so many times. I actually showed that i lacked faith or lack trust in God... Studying is never enough.. That is wat i have learnt..

Then half-way through my prelims. My mum had a relapse after 22 years. I was afraid! my mum had fits again and the scene I witnessed first hand was scary, Very frightening.. See her hollow eyes, tears rowing down her eyes. Her pale face, and that fact that she did not even know who I was after the thing was very frightening... Only when you have lost something or almost lost something, will you treasure it more and I do agree with this statement.. Well, it has taught me not to rely so much on my mum no more.. I need to take up more responsibilities in the house and to not over-work my mum coz I believe she has been over-worked.. Working, coming home to cook and do all the chores. We should not our part now..

I feel lazy to blog longer, but I have been having a hard time with my mum having her relapse, my grandmother got admitted into hospital (I think she will be discharge soon, but her kidney is getting worse) and I have been very tired these past weeks!! Fatigue and tired-ness does have its side-effect!! I hate exam, they make me stress... And well, another thing is that doing our QT at 2am is a bad idea! Coz you are so tired!! I plan to go back to doing it at 10 now :D

lol... :D

Prelims - Week 1

Hey dudes, I doubt I will be blogging a long post but here are some stories, very interesting short short stories about God's faithfulness and my bad luck. :( Hahah...

E-Maths miracle:

Well, my first two papers were English Paper 1 and E-Maths paper 2. Haha.. But i will just talk about the E-Maths paper coz something amazing happened. LOL.. I was doing my SD question. So SD means you go use the calculator lah. Or at least that how I would do it. Then so I go press the values in SD mode. However my calculator cocked up!! Big time!! Everytime I press store the values, it blanks out!! Then I also blank out lah!! I thought I GG... I tried 3 times, all fail!! my calculator pang sei me during exam!! Imba nia!! Then thank God!! siddenly, my calculator revived itself!! It started working again!! Woohoo!!! Then I happy lah.. Wow.. I just got 75/100 for that paper!! Coz I see my marks le!! But Prelims ain't over!! Ahah.. Thank God... O Praise him!! Hehe.. However, my calculator spoiled straight after the exams!! But who cares!! I bought another one le.

SS super suay-ness

OMG!! Was the reaction when i saw the paper!! I was like wat the bleah.. I think I kinda flunk the paper le coz I did not know how to write for my essay because all the chapter I did not study for, come out!! Oh mine!! I studied 5/8 chapter leh!! If you studied 5/8 chapters.. you would expect that one chapter that you studied for would come out right? I did, but the paper did not!! Alamak!! Flunk le.. :( This is going to be bad, my strongest subject just went down the drain.. sigh.. LOL... Nvm, prelims nia is the mindset :D then if Os, it will be just Os NIA!.. :D

History uphill task, hopeful

LOL.. I had no mood to study history actually. I am still unable to believe I was so suay!! :( LOL.. I will need about 40+/50 marks for my history le.. And well, I did not really study the whole book. I just studied 2/7 chapters and took the exam.. Well, at least I can do so it should be better than my SS paper but I need 40+ marks!! God help me!! LOL.. I wrote 9.5 pages long for the whole exam! :D Hopeful they are all not crap though. then can get a lot of marks!! :D God, you are in control. May your will be done, not mine... Have your way

Maths Double kill!!

LOL.. This is actually week 2 le, but nvm.. LOL... Well, I was mugging pretty late last night coz I needed to clock up and make up for the hours lost in the hospital on Sun. So I mugged till my father turned off all the lights so that I can't see and continue mugging then I will be forced to sleep. LOL.. Maybe I should have slept earlier coz during the E-Maths paper 1, which i will need to obtain 60/80 to get a A1, I slept.. :x Yes, I fell asleep doing the paper! I was like super tired!! I think it was due to all the fatigue accumulated in the past weeks. Aiyo... So I hope for the bet le lor.. LOL.. then A-Maths was killer.. :( There goes my targets... They ain't going to be met.. :( LOL.. But hey, prelims are coming to an end soon...

LOL... I better go and mug now.. BB :D

God!! Let them be saved!!!

Sigh.... I have got no mood to study le....

Well, I just received a call from my mother saying that maybe we would have to go down to SGH, because my grandmother... Idk what lah. But my mum said my grandmother may not have long le. She said she is dying le.. And I am like thinking to myself. I feel like a unfilial grandson!! I have been MIA from my grandmother's house for a very long time!! And I feel bad, I might not be able to make it up and time is running short... But one thing I ask, is that she would accept God!!!

BECAUSE HELL WAS NOT MADE FOR GOD CREATURE TO BE TORTURED FOR ETERNITY!! FOR ETERNITY LEH!! DO YOU UNDERSTAND WHAT ETERNITY MEANS?? IT MEANS FOREVER LEH!! I CAN"T IMAGINE THAT!! I DO NOT WANT THAT TO HAPPEN TO MY GRANDMOTHER OR ANYONE!! AND I DO NOT WANT TO SEE PEOPLE SUFFER AND BURN IN HELL!!!

So I got no mood to study lah... Because I know how hell is like, a small insight yet it is crazy!! The torture, the pain, the burning, the gashes of teeth, the screams of help!! The suffering!! For eternity!! ARGH!!! Imagine it in full!! Ouch cant even describe the horror!!

So..

"God!! I know you are in control!! I pray for the salvation of my grandmother, my dad, my friends and for each and every single of your creation!! Father!! Abba Father!! I prayer for the salvation of my grandmother!! I pray that she will come to know you!! I pray that she will accept you as your Lord and Saviour!! I pray that you save her!! That she will not go to hell!! I pray that she will see that she was made to worship you!! Father!! SAVE HER!!! SAVE HER!! SAVE HER!! I prayer this in the name of Jesus!! The son of man and son of God!! Amen!!"

Well, I can't study yet prelims are around the corner!! Help me O'lord!! I know that I can flack my prelims lah, I don't care!! All I want is for God creation to inherit salvation!!

Praise Him wherever we are

LOL.. This video is a joke.. Or I was laughing when I watched it but I admire it!!


When I first read the description, I was laughing le... It said,

PLEASE READ:
A guy walking the streets of New York just can't stop himself from praising in the streets!

LOL... I was like laughing lah.. You see the video. It is a music video, not for laughs. But imagine yourself singing praises to God in the mainland of Singapore. Orchard?? Marina Bay?? Imagine it?? Standing in the middle of the road, singing praises, worship. Kneeling down, raising up holy hands!! Wow!! I admire such courage, and how I wish I would be like that too.. Heck care what people think, only caring about what God thinks. Wow!! I want to also like him sio... "O Praise him!!" Everywhere we are, everywhere we go, everywhere we might be. Praise him. We were made to worship!! And that means everywhere.. I dream that one day, the whole of Singpaore will start praising God in the streets. Then it will be so cool. Imagine it... Wow..

Funny Moments, and Faces :D

LOL.. I was thinking.. Lets have a laugh.. Hehe.. These pictures can be found on FB but hey, must show as many people as possible!! :D Hehe..

Here are some Pictures of the Camping trip :D It was a blast, even with the lost of my wallet... :D

Rejoiced in my lost!!

Erm... Hi dudes... I don't know why but I am like spamming videos on my blog ah.. :( Haha.. But those videos are nice what, I think..

Well, I am here to blog about my lost wallet. Not asking anyone to return to me if they have it. and what are the chances that the person who took it would read this?? I am blogging about it not because I am still feeling down and so, but sure I will feel sad because it contains somethings money can't buy, and a lot of money. But hey, God is with us! He is with me all the time, he is in control. "Let his will be done, not mine, not yours but his."

I am here to blog about the weird feeling I felt. Did you know when I realise I lost my wallet. I just continued walking slowly and the strolling pace!!? LOL.... I don't know why but I was feeling peace then. sure I run up and down Pasir Ris park 3 times!! Wah, improve my fitness le lah, and I remember how the rhema boys all went to search for the lost wallet but to no avail. Hey, it is not about finding the wallet, but about the unity. To actually see them help to find it is really touching. It was something I might never be able to see had I not lost the wallet.. So I thank God no matter what has happen. I might have to live with a few difficulties for now but all praise to God!! I felt like a burden was lifted of my shoulders when I came to terms with the lost. I am not feeling upset that I lost my wallet, but thankful as it humbled me, taught be that "Naked I came, naked I would go". So no point crying over the lost but instead look towards building up treasures in heaven! I was humbled and thank God because God would oppose the proud. :D

And I think this is random, but I was thinking about X-Factor Camp. Remembering God's faithfulness. I actually prayed to god that he would build bonds in Rhema and that THERE WOULD BE UNITY!! I ASKED FOR SOMETHING TO HAPPEN TO BUILD UP THE UNITY IN RHEMA!! And guess wat!! He killed 2 birds with one stone. Imba right!! HAha...

And So I remember God's Faithfulness in the camp. X-Factor Camp how God cleared the sky and the testimonies people gave. I remember how Lefa talked about how unprepared PE was and my mum said that the right word to describe the camp was Emmanuel. And a lot more testimonies from different events on how God was with us. And how God was with me!! :D

And I bumped into two songs. Not catchy at all but they are worshipping God for his faithfulness, for who he is!! Indeed, EMMANUEL!!

And let us adore him for who he is, for what he has done... :D

Unfailing Love

Woah.. I feels so cute.. Oh man. My brain still sleeping lah.. Alamak, go camping then never get to sleep. Sleep for 15 hours le not enough sio, I still tired.. Sigh, I need to force myself to study!! :( Ok... Remember last time, I did a post about God's love sop min blowing that I am unable to comprehend it?? I found a song that fits it, or rather fits it!! LOL.. By Chris Tomlin this time. I try be a Eugene.. LOL... Random, butamazingly, I choose to listen to Chris Tomlin instead today.

LOL.. This song is more of a response to God's unfailing love... :D

Alive in You

Why this is our God got so many good song.. This one sounds sound good.. I like the rift.... LOL.. So upload lah.. :x Can we also play this song?? Aiyo, Play one set all from This is our God album can??

Where we belong

Another song from Hillsong!! This is our God album!! There!! The album is great. Or in my opinion it is... Wakaka.... LOL..

As you watch this. Read ther lyrics!! Casting all else aside!! For the joy of our Lord JESUS CHRIST!! May he bless you, speak to you through this video. Lefa! Can we play this after my Os??

The Same Power

Who knew shuff ur playlist and God speaks?? LOL.. Indeed God spoke to me even in random ways!! Isn't that great. Well, I was browsing youtube, and I came across this rather old song but impactful song. Indeed that same power that conquer the grave lives in me!! I am more than a conqueror!!

37No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. - Romans 8:37!!

When asked which album to you is best for Hillsong. I would say "This is our God. Reason: There are impactful songs such as Healer, Stronger, With Everything, You are Here, You deserve, He is Lord. But the most touching song is With everything because of how God move even though the concert was already over. When the people kept praising and sing even after concert. I can watch them sing for hours. Seeing the wonders of our God. Woah!!

God's Love for me is so mind blowing!!

Well, I was doing QT last night lah.. and will God spoke...

Hm.. It is rather mind blowing still to me. Because last night, I was redo-ing my NLK, and alos doing ODJ...

The most amazing part of it was that both talked about the same subject. I decided to do NLK and it was talking about the abundant he has promised. God did not say that there were no strings attach to the eternal life. But he said that abundant life is a life that is lived in LOVING obedience to him. Then there was a poem on how God sent his son to die for us. That love for us, that drove him to the cross. Then I was doing ODJ, and it was talking about rejoicing. Rejoicing that Jesus that died, and has risen!! And then I asked to hear his voice and 4 words formed in my head. "You are my son."

And well, it left me think how powerful is love. That he drove God to become man, and to die for such a wretch like me. How great is his love, something I am unable to comprehend!!! Is love really that powerful??

Today's worship, we say "How great is your love". So it really means something. I don't know why I am blogging this. But I am unable to comprehend such love, would you be able??

I can't imagine myself dying for somebody's sake. It is that kind of love. So strong, so powerful. I also blur!! And then just imagine you doing so much such for the person and then the person is not grateful, instead he/she just "orh" then heck care you. Imagine that pain you will feel. I think I like want to slap the person's face lah!! Imagine that pain God feels?? Yet he is still so patient. He is imba man. And I want to be able to comprehend love. To love to the extent that I would lay my life down.

And this is wat the bible says about love:

⁴Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. ⁵It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. ⁶Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. ⁷It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. - 1 Corinthians 13:4-7

So do you have such love??

Passion Rekindle?

Hm... Today, my thoughts are are jumbled up. Hm...

Well, today I went to D.I and what my eyes saw was that the shaking that is happening in D.I can really be seen. It not minor one that can be covered up but it is visible. Well, I saw that D.I has rather "shrink" as I can really see the drastic difference in attendance when Si'er was still here, and after he left. I am not saying the leader now are lousy, but the shaking is really affecting D.I...

And then I was thinking to myself, I see Rhema, we are suppose to be 10 strong but then week in week out, only a few are truly rooted. Then I think to myself, why is D.I suddenly a place that feels so dead?? Where is all the hyperness?? Where is the D.I I once knew?? I know that there are still many regular faces but where are the new souls?? Where is the passion that was burning so strongly in our hearts once?? Where is the compassion for the lost?? You can say, I feel burdened yet to nothing. Isn't that as good as not being burdened??

God has called as out to evangelise, to make disciples of all nations but we sometimes think that our needs are more the will of God and we don't not do it. Have you been guilty of it?? I know I am, I hope you admit it too, and start afresh!!

To the Christian who read this, ask yourself.

- Is the fire in my heart still burn for God??

- Do I have the compassion for the lost??

If you need your fire, your passion to be rekindle, lets ask God this day to help us!!

I remember when D.I said 100 by June. How many of us truly work towards that goal with all our heart, with your your minds, with all your strength?? Have we given our all for God, or are we still holding back something?? Did we truly believe it by faith, and did it turn into actions??!!! Because the bibles says,

But someone will say, "You have faith; I have deeds."

Show me your faith without deeds, and I will show you my faith by what I do.

You believe that there is one God. Good! Even the demons believe that—and shudder.

You foolish man, do you want evidence that faith without deeds is useless? Was not our ancestor Abraham considered righteous for what he did when he offered his son Isaac on the altar? You see that his faith and his actions were working together, and his faith was made complete by what he did. And the scripture was fulfilled that says, "Abraham believed God, and it was credited to him as righteousness,"and he was called God's friend. You see that a person is justified by what he does and not by faith alone.

In the same way, was not even Rahab the prostitute considered righteous for what she did when she gave lodging to the spies and sent them off in a different direction? As the body without the spirit is dead, so faith without deeds is dead. - James 2: 18-26

So is your backed up by actions?? My heart was very burdened to see the way things look at D.I and even if I do leave, I do not want to leave D.I is such a state!! I want to see revival!! I want to see revival!! Lets us cry out to God!! Ask him to help us, to accomplish the great commission!! I want to see Rhema produce boys whose have mountain-moving faith!! I want to see revival in D.I and in Rhema!! To every Christian!! Let us work towards such a goal!! Lets us pray to God, because this can only happen if God is with us!! If not we will not go, unless God goes with us.

Come on, bros and sis!! Let Revival take place in D.I!!

God heals the wound, not time!

A wound so deep,

A hurt so huge,

Your loss saddens his heart,

and tears start flowing down,

those that are the apples of his eye.

But no hurt is too deep,

no wound to huge,

that he can't mend,

He is healer,

but all he longs is for you...

For you...

for you to seek refuge in him,

for you to find strength in him,

for you to love once again,

for you to stand up again and worship him.

Oh man. this is random but I did a break from doing R-formula. I going siao le!! Oh man.. Make me study for an hour!! LOL... Don't ask me why the poem so random, maybe becoz I random. Idk??

Well, but this poems those reflects my thoughts. And what I know of him. I might not know all, I might be to lousy to comprehend his imba-ness, and glorious majesty but I know he is my strength, my healer and Saviour.

I think you all will again ask me why I write so emo poems. I am not. I am telling myself to embrace it with open hands. No more running, no more hiding le!! Time to let the wound be healed.

Ok, some brief information on the poem, but i doubt you see the link :D. I have learnt that the phrase, "time heals the wounds" is not true.

Some wounds might be too deep, too huge. Time only gives us a chance to forget it but if it is too big, it will reopen and you will feel that same pain. The tormenting feeling of pain and anguish.

Since time can't heal wounds, who can? Simple. GOD.

Well, 3 weeks have passed. I am still learning, I am sure the wounds are still not healed completely but are gradually healing. God is your healer, believe it or not, is a fact. You don't need to know what I am going through but the tormenting process is gradually lessening... But I want to learn what I have learnt. God is your healer, none else are like him. No one else can pull of this feat only he can do.

P.S I wrote the poem hor. After 4 years, I finally wrote another one.. So if it is lousy, dont blame me :x

Chinese O'level Results!!

Woah!! Today, I just got back my results for my O'levels!! and guess what I just passed!! Woohoo!!

After 10 years, since pri2 except for PSLE, I have always been failing chinese and it has been the most depressing subject that I might have ever taken. Failing for 10 years is not motivating, right!!??

Going into the hall gave me butterflies in my stomach. I was nervous, afraid yet peace filled my heart despite the uncertainties that were surrounding me. Isn't that great??!! I asked God in China, to help me pass my Chinese O'level Oral. I also tried going on a fast, but it did not materialised. Yet God has been faithful, with no strings attached, he passed me!!

God has shown me that he will always hear our prayers. Indeed, just like my previous post. Faith does miracles!! And this post is evident to my previous post!! I admit that I was doubtful at times, but who would not be if you have never experienced the adrenaline rushing through your body because you never passed your MT exam before?? I prayed not powerful, full of faith prayers, but prayers that requested for God divine intervention. I prayed soft prayers, asking God to help me. Because I knew he was always in control no matter where or what has happen. Forever, he reigns!! Forever and ever... Well. How faithful are you God??

Are you not?? Did you not?? And have you not?? My soft whispers were cries for help. My heart longed for your intervention. And when it looked like disaster was about to strike. You appeared, and rescued me. How faithful are you??

Well... I got it back!! Disaster never struck!! I passed!! C6!! Woohoo.. I smsed a lot of people!! My parents, my tution teacher!! Hong Xia, and a lot lah.... But Should I not have thank God first?? God longs to hear us. It was God who first helped me!! It was him, yet it feels like I abandoned him after he helped me!! He longs to her his child speak to him. It was the reason for our existence. Yet I pushed him aside. I did not thank him first!! He was not the forst person I talked too... and I feel bad...

Therefore...

"God. I thank you for your faithfulness. I thank you that you are forever in control and that you heard and answered my prayers. I pray for your forgiveness to fall upon me. I am sorry that I kind of pushed you aside. I am sorry. Help me to think of you. To put you first, before all else. Help me.. I pray.."

Have you been through what I am feeling, have you been guilty of such acts?? Ask God for forgiveness and change!! :D Be blessed!!

What can Faith Do?

What has God said about faith as small as a mustard seed?

He replied, "Because you have so little faith. I tell you the truth, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, 'Move from here to there' and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you." - Matthew 17:20

And i found this on Youtube, What can Faith do? PE Band, lets have a sleepover after Os then we watch fireproof together, then cry together. Ok maybe it would just me..

I want to watch Fireproof!!

Doing maths is depressing so I decided to browse through Facebook, then I came across this link that my mum posted... Interesting song... Hm.. So I went to listen to it, then I found Fireproof, the movie again!! Oh man, I think I must watch Fireproof because the song, "While I am Waiting" is also from that movie!! So I want watch Fireproof.

The one that I found in youtube after browsing around after clicking her link:

This the one she posted:

Are you first??

LOL.. Hi people (wif the Hong Kong ascent, blame Io Tong lah) :D

Today is Sunday and it has been pretty eventful. I when to 2 libraries (Just wait, to see the reason why I want to whack Yan Hong), Lefa, Joshua, You Fu came to house to play real and virtual soccer. We kind of got own by people stronger than us. I know them, the batch of my primary sch. People whom I had played before, but it has been a long time. They were definitely a class above most of us. Maybe better or on par with me.. but I never come compare because You fu kind of attacked his teammate, causing him to limp and feel pain at his appendix. To make things worse, he hit it twice!! Ouch!! I pity MYSELF LAH!! I also manage to pwn Yan Hong in PES 2010. Yan Hong, go train lah!! Hehe.. Pretty interesting day, and in addition to the fun, there was a A-Maths test the following day, and if peple came to my house. I confirm can't study lah!! Diaoz.. I like studied 30 mins.. Chiongster sia!! Hope can pass happy le.

Well... The reason why I wanted to whac Yan Hong is because he asked me on saturaday if I wanted to go library study, then he told me Jurong Regional Library (which is Jurong East one).. So I went there at 2, and waited for him. I waited 30 mins then decided told want wait. Go in find Endang and CX. SO I go 3rd floor, walk around 3 times. Then I said I give up, he come find me. Then I receive a call... "Hello, I think you in wrong library. Jurong Point one leh (Which is JURONG WEST lah) Wat the bleahly bleah!! In doing so, I wasted one hour. Which spoiled my entire schedule. I was supposed to return PSP to my mum (The CCK one, or non-biological one) but then Lefa, Joshua, and You Fu at my house le. Like waiting for the arrival of the Prince or something.. I was like Wat the bleah again!

So due to Yan Hong brilliant navigating skills. Or brilliant locations!! I wasted one hour.. I feel like whacking him, unfortunately, I am slow to anger. Sigh.. I won't in the end. LOL.. Well... The pain that You Fu inflicted on me painful that is kind of stop me from being able to run. And when I can't run I can't play. I kind of told you my strength in soccer le.. But I still love you, bro!! Haha... LOL.. But that is not my focus today, or this post...

Well.. Before it ws two o'clock, I followed the CCK/Yew Tee gang. not gang lah.. Only Pearl and Justin... Then I was talking and I forgot what I said le... then the interesting part has yet to come. I stopped at CCK, typical me sio, then I was telling my mum about my english oral or my prob with the word "People". LOL.. But more funny was at the end of the escalator. My mum told me this, "I give you advice when net time you get gf. She must be first priority, if not you will make her cry." Then I was like stunned lah, why so random??

Errrr.... Oooook? I tio stun le but then it helped me ask myself. If I next time got gf then she must be first priority. A bit GG ah, coz I know my style. No responsibility de, imagine my gf cry like wat the bleah.. lol.. But I doubt I will get one. Oh man that was random too!!.. Then you know usually, in CIA, I was taught God is first priority and will always be. So I asked since you would love your future gf very much, God is your first love. "Do you keep him as first priority? Do you love him more thn your GF or ur future one? Will you?? Even if your friend ask you go here there and everywhere but God wants you to be at church, do you still obey God?? Is God always first?? "

So this is my question to you, "Has God been your first priority in life?" GF or no GF, I am sure you understand what I am trying to bring across... Be bless then :D

P.S Mum says I misinterpreted the advice. And of course I did. I am still too young to comprehend it. Wakaka ( 8 years old mentally, imba sio)... But it is not the advice she gave you take away from the post. It is whether you are going to or have always place God first in your live. I am sure you got sometimes never de, so it is to help you reflect. Something like ODJ. But this one is done by me.. :x

End of the 40 days Prayer and Fast 2010

Ok.. Maybe it is time to update again le.. Wah.. I super lazy sia.. Today it the day I can spam playing PS3 le leh!! Confirm spamming, but then got tones of homework still left undone. The worse part, everyday I try complete them, I realise there was more lah.. Sian sio...

Now my to-do list has the

+ El Project

+ 2 Maths Paper

+ 1 Physics Paper

+ 1 E-Maths paper

+ 1 El Picture Discussion

+ And what the bleah sio!!

Oh man!! So much work, but I just spammed 3 games on my PS3 le... :D How I missed the nice graphics man!! How I miss pwning the teams... Unlike my PSP, my Ps3 team is mush strong... My PSP, though it is fun to raise a new generation of soccer players into the future almighty team, the process is tough, coz I playing all 17 years old players sia... :x While PS3 I get the young ones than are not so young, around 22, to play then train them since they can still develop... I have a feeling you won't get it right?? LOL.. Nvm.. Just need understand I building up a exceptionally strong team youth team in both my PS3 and PSP :D

Hehe.. I also got to give God the praises he deserves for helping me complete the 40 days prayer and fast!! It has been a long 40 days for me to finally be able to play my Ps3!! But it has enabled me to know that I cann actually restrain myself from playing!! :D

So thank you Lord, for being faithful, for helping me... Heal the wounds, help me. I pray...

Despicable Me and The Sorcerers Apprentice

IT SO FLUFFY, I AM GOING TO DIE!!! Haha...

Despicable me was so funny!! LOL.. And the story line is pretty touching too. It is great to see how hearts, even the most harden and evil of hearts can be transformed into a tender loving heart.. Great isn't it!!?? Haha..

I also gotta thank Lin Cho and Chian Huei for the movie ah, it was their Birthday gift to me. SO I did not need to pay a cent.. OH man, I feel guilty still!! Ok..

I also watched the Sorcerers Apprentice not long ago.. like around last week. And I am still amazed at the fact that why the guy would fight for Love instead for the whole of human mankind?? LOL.. Random sia.. and I still don;t understand a lot from the movie but I give in a 3.5 rating coz it was touching.. Lover never fails - 1 Corinthians 13:8!! And the movie showed me Love always prevails!! He fought for his friends and loved one and he won.. Wat the bleah. LOL.. But interesting still... :D Watch it!! :D Haha...

SO I have watched Karate Kid and Despicable Me, The Sorcerers Apprentice and soon going to watch thew Last Airbender and maybe also Inception!! Hehe.. It is already more than the amount of movies I watch last year, which was one 2.. Pathetic, I know. Ahah.. I am going to set my new record of movie watched in a year soon. Hehe.. And it will be done during my O'levels year! AHAhah..

Chinese?? I never knew of such a subject.

Haha... I kinda like the title.. :X HAha.. YEah!! Chinese O'level is over.. :D HAha... I know it is a bit late to blog about it coz it happen like of long ago, but I was lazy to blog lah..

Haha.. Finally it is over, may my suffering end here.. Hehe.. I hope Hong Xia does not see this, if not.. I gg.. totally!! Haha... O'level Chinese is a pain man, finlly it is over though high chance of re-taking lah.. but I like dont want sia.. :x Haha.. I think Oral, slightly GG, the written paper was GG.. but Listening, I can do!! Praise God :D AHha...

So now it is time to start work!! :( But I so don't want to!! Really pain ah.. Now cant eat lunch nor play PS3.. PSP only sometimes.. :( Super sad sia.. :( Then still need to start work le!! Sigh.. i pray for discipline!! I am a slacker, but I gotta get out of that shell can start working!!

God please help me..!!I can rejoice that Chinese is over, but O'levels are drawing ever too close!! :(

Post World Cup Fever!!

Hehe.. Do you know the Wavin Flag song.. This is video is so cool,, see how the whole crowd does the actions when he sings!!

Chinese O'level Oral!! Help!!

Sigh!! I might have just experience the worse birthday gift yet to receive!! OMG!!

Today, I found out that my Chinese O'level oral will fall on the same day as my birthday!! Sharks!! And to make things worse!! It means it is abt a week away!! OMG!! And I can't speak chinese!! Oh man!! If I speak chinese, people start laughing!! LOL... And remember how I did my chinese Mid-year oral... I just stared at the teacher then said I don't know in chinese then go off.. LOL.. GG.. I cant do the same now!! No way!!

"GOD, BE MY HELPER!! I AM STRESSED OUT HERE!!"

And that is when "The Stand" comes into play.. It is the song of the moment that can touch my heart!!

In the Mystery

HAha.. Since I am still not blogging yet so I will just upload nice songs.. Not so modern songs and modern ones.. Haha.. Enjoy bah :D

In Your Name
There is hope when all seems lost
There is freedom in the power of the cross
Let the world see

(Verse 2)
In Your Name
There is truth where logic fails
Understanding that makes sense of our days
You Are Worthy

(Pre-Chorus)
Hear the song of all creation roar
We’re crying out as One
To You our God
Now show us the way of Your love
And we will come running

(Chorus)
All for Jesus’ name
Your love displayed
We are alive in the mystery
All for sinners’ gain
Your life You gave
We’ll sing Your praise for eternity

(Verse 3)
In Your Name
There is mercy without end
Overtaking us now time and again
Let the world see

(Verse 4)
In Your Name
There is love that never fails
And the promise that Your word will prevail

(Pre-Chorus)
Hear the song of all creation roar
We’re crying out as One
To You our God
Now show us the way of Your love
And we will come running

(Chorus)
All for Jesus’ name
Your love displayed
We are alive in the mystery
All for sinners’ gain
Your life You gave
We’ll sing Your praise for eternity (x2)

.... Hear us sing

(Bridge)
Hallelujah
Hallelujah
Hallelujah
Great is Your Name
Great is Your Name

Oceans Will Part

Well, today was actually pretty unproductive for me coz I am still doing Indices and Surds!! ONLY sia!! And I have not really studied this holiday!! LOL... But this ain't the reason why I am posting this.

A few days back (2 to be specific. I attended WAC Family Camp 2010 with my whole family!! :D And I bought myself a Liverpool watch!! Woohhooo!! But this camp is special, I am going to come clean.. :D

Honestly, I have been experiencing a "Dark night of the soul" or the "desert" for a rather long time I believe.. And it has hindered me from experiencing God's presence and as an ealget and PE's keyboardist!! It has really hindered me!! I should not be like that!! OMG!! So like GG lah..

But during the camp, I have been shown that all you can really do is trust in God. I need to totally surrender my heart unto God, not to rely on my own strength as I am just mere man. My heart was broken, my faults revealed. It is time to place faith in God, when the time comes. To fully surrender, and let his will be done within me...

So today, as I was trying to study (like of failed), I came across this song. Again Hillsong, LOL... But the song has spoken to me.. Haha.. Ok, I cnt go search to random songs now!! Becoz tmr PE is going to play, gotta listen to the proper songs!! Haha..

Phillipians 1:6

being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus.

To Know his Name

Hi.. I currently in school while I am blogging this post.. But while studying,I listened to this song on youtube while doing some random research.. LOL.. And it has calmed my spirit down..

God has loved us so much, what could we do but just adore him? To love him? To know him more? TO thrist? To hunger?

Sit back and enjoy.. It is nice cause it is hillsong.. LOL.. Just joking.. It is because it is all about God!! :D And let us make this song our response!! To know his name!!

THE CHOSEN ONE

This is a clear steal from Safe-Keeper's Secret!! HAha.. Ya, the plot is there but it was kind of cutted short!! LOL.. And edited a bit here and there because I had no idea how to write for the topic "The Chosen One"!! Wat the bleah.. Lol... So it looks like fantasy books do come in useful!! Haha.. Give me your comments too .. :D Enjoy

Nine years ago, my mum told me that a mysterious wealthy man riding on a horse had trotted into this village, a small unknown village with little wealth, in the middle of the night. He was carrying a baby and placed that baby at the doorstep of this cottage. My mother found that baby whining in a small basket. It was reported the next day that a wealthy man was found dead on the street not far from our cottage. There was not injuries found on him, and it is believed to be a suicide.

Nine years have passed, and that baby that he brought to that cottage that night is all grown up and that boy is me. My mother has always told me about that night when she heard a horse in our village and that she had woke up and saw a hooded man, carrying the baby and walking towards the doorstep of her house. I have never failed to be fascinated by it, and I have always wondered, “Why did that man bring me to this unknown village?”, “Who was I?”, and “Who are my true parents?” But the thought of leaving this village and finding out who were my parents or my biological mother has never crossed my mind. I was contented with the life I was living. A simple life in a small village, where nothing shell-shocking or big ever happens.

But on the other side of the country, a saga was unfolding. Rumors have spread to all parts of the country, except ours, that the King had an affair with a servant girl in the palace. That he had union with her without the Queen knowing. And now, the secret and adulterous affair was being brought into light. The Queen, in her sick and fragile condition, still had no idea about her husband’s evil deeds. The people had began plotting to overthrow their wicked king but they decided against it as they did not was to hurt the Queen’s emotion. The people liked their Queen, that figure of justice and peace. That figure of love, hope and patience. Everyone adored the Queen, and her gifts thus the King was being spared for the time being, but his days were numbered as King.

As time passed, the Queen began to recover and soon she began to find out about the recent events that has happen in the kingdom. Soon, her husband’s affair was brought known to her but instead of unleashing her fury upon the King. She seemed to be able to accept the fact that her husband had been unfaithful towards her.

However, the Queen knew that she had to bring back justice and righteousness back to the Kingdom and if that meant that her loved one had to be punished, she was prepared to accept that heartbreaking fact.

The Queen called for a large gathering where people from all parts of the country would be invited and requested to attend that event. Messengers traveled to all parts of the country and spread the word. The turnout for the gathering seems to be good. People from other parts of the country were flogging down to the capital of the country, where the palace was situated.

Soon, the messenger had arrived in our village. That was the first time I saw a person from the palace come to our village and it was the first time I heard about the saga. Soon, the villagers were agog about attending the gathering and so was I. It was going to be the first time that our people were going to meet people from other parts of the country even though the gathering was to resolved and punish the crime of the King. Our villagers did not care about the seriousness of the crime as they had been so outcast from society that they would not have been able to comprehend the seriousness of such a crime.

We started our journey to the capital the following day, and the moment we stepped foot into the capital. I was stunned beyond words!! The roads were well-paved, the housing well-decorated, coated with bright red colour contrasting the clear blue sky. And from distance, you could see the majestic and grand palace, which towers were coated in gold.

Then I heard someone horning the horn, and I knew straight away that the gathering was about to begin. My mother and I quickly made our way down to the holding place of the gathering. And there, I saw people of different ethnic groups, people of different sizes, height, facial features, clothing, and skin colour. Then I saw the Queen, that figure of righteousness and justice upon the land appearing of the tallest tower of the palace. She was dressed in a crystal white dress and the tiara she wore glittered from the sunlight.

Then the Queen addressed us all, “Thank you all for your time for coming to this important gathering. I believe you all know about the King’s evil deeds and you desire for justice to be brought back upon this land. I will now invite the King to apologize to all of us, and explain the complication of his scandal.”

The King appears from the tower, his head hanging down and his expression looks resentful, then he opens his mouth, “Dear people of Bologhen, I know that I have brought shame upon this land and I repent of my wrong doings. However, I wish to reveal to you more about this scandal so that my brother did not die in vain. I plead guilty that I had union with a servant girl and that she bore a child when the Queen was still seriously ill. I was frightened and afraid when I found out about the truth and I sent the servant girl far away. But months later, I received this baby boy and this letter in the middle of the night telling me this baby was the child that is now living in this world of because my sin. And the letter told me that the servant girl has decided to flee to a foreign land and will never return to this country again. I was distressed and did not know what to do. Then my brother told me that I should sent this baby to a faraway place where no one would find out and so that I would be able to act as if I had not done any evil. My brother then sent that baby boy to a village, that I do not know myself, and then later poisoned himself because he felt that he had gone against the moral of this country and has let down the people of the country of Bologhen. But the reason why I am telling you all this is because I believe that standing in your mist is that boy that will be the heir of the throne. And I hoped that that boy would step forward and show himself to everyone because there is nothing to be afraid of, as you are innocent.”

Everyone at the gathering was shell-shocked. The Queen was shedding tears. The truth was finally out but it has brought death upon a man. Then my mother walked up and out of the crowd and presented herself to the King and Queen.

“I know the boy that you are searching for,” said my mother.

Both the King and Queen raised an eyebrow at my mother, then my mother called out “Miticos, come and join mother here.” I then squeezed my way out of the crowd and stood beside my mother, looking innocently at the King and Queen.

“This is the boy that was brought into the Earth by you, your majesty. That night, your brother came to our village in the middle of the night and brought this child to me. He told me that this was the son of the King and that I should take good care of this boy and wait for the day when this boy would be presented to the whole country. And he also told me to keep this.” Then my mother took out the Royal Pass from her pocket and presented it to the King and Queen.

The King and Queen was stunned, and was unable to utter a word.

Then my mother spoke again, “I believe it is time that I return to you the heir of this kingdom that the Queen might teach him the ways of righteousness and the ways of this country.” Then my mother stood up and took her leave.

I was still standing in front of the king and queen. I was unable to move a muscle. This was too much for me to accept in such a short period of time. I could not believe that I was soon the chosen one to lead this country. The King could no longer be King as he was no more that figure of righteousness but I was to fit into the shoes of my father. To lead this huge nation in the path of righteousness and I was going to learn from the best of the best, the queen!

I was shell-shocked and I knew the journey ahead was not going to be easy. However, I had the support of my mother, the queen and most of the people at the gathering. And soon, I was about to experience a journey full of adventure and excitement.

P.S The China Trip is gonna take quite a while becoz I am lazy to blog!! AHha..

Temperately, A way out!!

Hm.. From my previous post. You could tell I was like sad lah.. Coz I dont get to play competitive football, most likely again.

However, God has presented me a way out!! Woohoo!! Well, i am allowed to join the team for training since i am going to China to train, thus, I will need to train lah!! So, I have found myself back in my normal lifestyle!! Woohoo!!

It is now back to going home at 7pm and starting work again at 8!! Though CHINESE O"LEVEL COMING LE!! ARGH!! I gotta study, but I enjoy going back to soccer!! So I don't need to go for some soccer trail and decline the offer later on. For now, it is training, training, playing, playing and accumulate fatigue!! Hehe!! Since We train like everyday now, I getting cramps sia... Best part, at the backside there.. -.-!! LOL..

So, I thank God that he allowed to be go back into competitive soccer, though the stint would end on 30 may but hey, thank God!! :D Though it is short, I will enjoy it!! Hehe.. And afterall, I am rather rusty now. Exams have killed me of my touches so even if I go for the trail now, I might not get on.. Hhah... Thank God... :D

God does look after my desires afterall!! Hehe.. I am happy yet my body is in pain!! The irony!! Haha..

As my Soul Weeps

Well, my mid-years are over and I am feeling sad because I realised my Mid-year was going to count for something. *sigh*

Jethro asked me to go for the SAJC soccer trial, and I see no harm going so I decided to email the coach there....

All I said was I play soccer and want to know the trial dates, then I got a long list of requirements.. -.-" Wat the bleah... Then the trial on 29 May (I training in China during that time) so I said I will not be in Singapore then he say, if I want go for the second trial lah, Or most likely part 2 with the better player from the first trial. But he requires my Sec 3 End-of -year results and my this mid-year results. OMG!! No hope sia.. The results all like shit sia.. Though considered good for me since I have CCA during exam period last year.. But still it is CMI in SAJC standards.. :(

And the SAJC soccer trial was actually something to look forward too since my season is over (SO early sia!!) and I am like free, no more training, no more nothing sia!! Then I keep for for nothing. Walao... So if can got the trial, and hopeful go pawn the people, then at least I kept fit for something lah. But since need results, I super sad lah, coz I know I can't go. The results not good enough lor. And this trial was like maybe the last chance to savor playing soccer competitive football because it is beginning to seem clear that I will not be allow to pursue my dreams after O'level. I am part of the plans. The higher plan, not my plan but God's so I will have to surrender my dream then.. :( And I also want go POLY!! Coz easier ah.. I want to slack de, so in simple terms. I JUST WANT TO GO THE TRIAL TO PLAY PLAY AROUND, THEN DECLINE THE OFFER IF I GET!! BECAUSE I JUST WANT TO PLAY SOME COMPETITIVE FOOTBALL!!! :(

Then I super sad coz my humanities got an A2 instead of its usual A1 and my other subject were below expectations again!! Sigh... Though my L1R4 and L1R5 have improved. L1R4 from 20 to 16 now, L1R5 from 26 to 21 now.. But still, it is a shit result slip!! Bloody!! I super sian.. Like I failed in my academics and I lost my sports... :(

Then again, the fire within me in burning!! 100 by June to all D.I Impactors!!

While I am Waiting

Our God is great!! Strong!! Almighty!! He is the one where love overflows from, he is the one love, grace and peace where is found!!

This song, I have listened to is an album Andy passed to me and the other encounter people!! And it touched me because it has told me to serve, to worship even while I wait for the answer. The answer to whether my future lies in somewhere else than D.I??

This video is about a couple who are on the brink of a divorce. And they think they have no more hope together, then came along a guy who told them about God and soon God mended their relationship. So if God can salvage a marriage heading to the grave, what more can he not do??




As I wait for it.. Enjoy the music video. While I am waiting, I got a Rhema to build up!!

Settling Down

Hehe, if the PE dudes see this they might scold me for thinking about this...

Ok, I am finding it hard to settle down into a normal schedule leh!!! Like suddenly got so much time to yourself, for the first time I can watch TV, eat a meal for 1 hour and go down and play!!

HAha, at times, I still missed my old schedule but I got to look forward, maybe I will build up my reputation back downstairs?? haha..

I enjoy winning Hong Wei and my Brother tag team against me. Coz I owned them.. hehe.. Evil leh, like I can play with pressure, do skill like shiok, shoot with right leg.. :X LOL.. You understand bah.. Like playing downstair, I can slowly hopefully find back my passion for the sport, and maybe heal the wound because I doubt I will fully walk out of soccer... So, I ain't going to cry le bah. Okie, keep mind blank.. :D COz I cried enough I hope on Sunday le.. And I still got China Trip, hopefully if MT teacher allow... LOL..

LOL, so for once in my secondary school life from sec 2-4. I finally feel how it is like to have a normal life, a relaxed life, with time to yourself, with a normal schedule, no more something that can kill you..

SO JIA YOU, EUGENE!! :D (and PE's 2nd most busy person is up for grabs too..)

Soccer Journey

Well, Today we lost to Kent Ridge 0-2... And it ended my dream of getting the National Crown, most likely for the rest of my entire life... That is why I AM HEART-BROKEN!!!

I need my PSP now!! Mum, if you ever will read this, can I get to play my psp?? Becoz I really want to get my head distracted from this matter... Don't say STUDY!!! Coz I am too heart-broken to study, let alone open a book...

Well, so I really wish I could relive those wonderful moments in my Soccer life, and change those bad memories... I watched in horror as the nightmare unfolded in front of my eyes... A few days after the newspaper report the fight between SA and ACS(I), Hong Kah and Kent Ridge almost had their very own fight... I got flagged offside 6 times!! Bloody!! And how I wished I was a right-footed player just a few hours earlier becoz the ball fell nicely for a volley from my right but I totally miss it!!! And I blame myself... Well, no point crying over spilled milk now, so I will bring you through the flashback of my soccer journey...

Well, the reason I said 10 years I have trained, but come out empty-handed is because my passion started from Primary 1...

In Primary 1, the incident that sparked my loved for soccer was when I was in my mother grandparents' house. I was sitting in their rocking chair and I was watching what the men were watching.. SOCCER!!! It was Home against Gombak, yes, the S-league but it was an interesting game and that sparked my love for soccer. SO from then on I have played soccer everyday of my live from Primary 1 to 6.. Yes, EVERYDAY!!! I have never skipped one day and in that process scored 326 goals, 50+ were right-footed, 20+ were headers... I still remember everything because I love this sport and it is going to be a bit hard to walk out of the door, into a world where soccer can't survive in....

That is a simpler summary of soccer life in primary school, I never joined my school soccer then because it sucks but everyone knew I was good in it. I remember playing in the corridor of the school, and I will be dribbling pass so many people to score a goal. I also remember how everytime during recess, I would enter the school field and the match will come to a stop because people will argue which team I was going to help.. -.- haha. this are fond memories and I love them.. :D But they were soon history the moment I became part of Hong Kah Soccer...

Well, life in sec 1 was shit... Because I when to the policy not to speak malay(Thought it was reason why my chinese so poor), I was more or so out-casted. I remember being told to go join BB lah by some of the malays, when we were having the trails. But I persevered, but it was just the beginning to my nightmare year in soccer. I missed out on my chance to be named in the school team and I was very sad because I worked very hard for it... then things got worse, my asthma acted up again.. :( And I was out for 1 month, it caused me my place again for the National round... Then I got a fracture in my leg... So sec 1 seemed a horrible year for me, because I missed out on everything!! Usually people will just quit, but I did not and well things got better during the pre-season.

I returned from injury and I soon got into the first eleven, don't ask me how I did it but I did it.... I was amazing.. And of course, my teammates respected me. I have not heard the word go join some other CCA, because I am now part of the most glorious CCA in the schoool. People outside never knew I did not make it into the school team them so I was also looked up then... haha.. SO cheat lor...

So summary of Sec 1, I was a nobody, and did not make the cut then but during pre-season, things changed and I soon found myself in the starting eleven.

Then Sec 2 became the best year in my whole secondary school life. I scored 13 goals in 20+ matches. Played every matched except for Chestnut drive because I was sick then and the coach did not want to risk me. Won the West Zone title unbeaten, and with no doubts too as we trashed every team. Became the first batch to reach the Manchester United Premier Cup Semis and lose to Sports Schol but got second. Made in to the National Final, played the match of my life. Lost unfairly and that I believe was soon the beginning of our downfall that crumpled this year...

Because we were so successful, egos began to grow. People thought they were superstars and never went training le. I can name but nah.. No point. Then Jas, our cap, when to sports school. Our team seems to crumple with that departure. We lost many good players then.. And the bulk of the team remained.

Sec 3 was well fun. Coz I got west zone second, unrighteously again but who ask us to be so short.. :( Actually, I never felt part fo the team until the national round when I came in as a sub, made an assist, revived the team morale, but missed a glorious chance again. then got whack above my ankle in another match. My nerve was twisted and the wound was open, so you could see the blood then and that ended my season. But I soon felt part of the team and was sad, but I told myself next year and look what has happened.. That is why I am sad... But the team that was super successful last year really never felt the departure of the stars because we had the Sec 4s and 5s...

Sec 4.. My last year.. Well, because we got back some of the lost stars, we had the bulk of our team back still... We when 17 matches unbeaten, or on a 17 match winning streak. We beat JCs and other school so we were still good, very good. So pressure was high on us. Then the season began and everything feel apart. Because of the pressure, there were high expectations. Every mistakes we made was like punished or scolded for lah. After the second match, people started walking out again... So soon, the team was deproving drastically. And when the stars were sick for the Semis, we were dead because we had very little players to count on, and I was like recovering from Si'er departure then so I was not in the mood. Things broke apart after the Semis, ego arise, selfishness appear, lack of hunger showed up and more of the leftover of that winning team were left. So it the Nationals, it was mostly Tom, Dicks and Harry who wanted to play because the coach wanted hunger.. Only fresh blood could do so since we have felt it before.

And so it should have been expected that we weren't as good as that winning batch but it also meant I did not have the team that could bring me to that National Crown I wanted!! I feel like I wasted my time but I have improve a lot since I was 6. Well, so it spells the end of my soccer career maybe, because I have D.I, PE band, and other commitments to attend too that I will not be able to join a club nor join some school team in my JC or Poly life as commitment on 3 fronts will be very high!! And I am human, not some inhuman person...

But at least, I will still have my China trip to bid my farewell to the sports competitively... :(

Glorify Him...

Well.. I think I ain't in the best of state coz I just realise I lost my self-esteem... LOL.. But it is true.. I lost my mood to do anything... That includes playing PSP and soccer and talk crap... I don't feel like doing anything... And it is interestingly awkward!!! hahah.. I will return to full throttle soon though.... Coz I will rest and see what is wrong.. I thought I was burning out but there is more than meets the eye.. haha.. but I am going to return refreshed...

Ok.. You should not have read that but nvm.... LOL.. Ok.. I want to talk about the fact that God speaks to you all the time...

Ok, today was awkward for me because I was like don't want do this and that .. so it affected my performance in soccer.. In terms of studies, I am forcing myself to study... SO aiya, you understand bah... Then I was handing in my work, long over-due work, then I did not write my name so I sound like I was ok..

I said: "Aiya, can tell from handwriting de lah"

Io tong: " Aiya, go write Jesus name lah"

SO it was meant as an insult or an attempt to suan me... Dont worry, I got training de, won't blow up just like that or because of it.. But it got me thinking... So write Jesus name on my paper would mean it was perfect.. But it was not..

So I realise that from such a statement, we are meant to do our best because people should see not us but Jesus living within us... So in all we do, we gotta do our best to glorify him...

P.S In simple terms, I need to bounce back, and stop the rapid downfall of my talkativity.. :D LOL..

Spirit-Led

Weell, today is Good friday!!

The day which christ dead for everyone sins.. there is a promise for many to take hold if they just return to the Lord.. Christ died so we may have live and so that you may have a relationship with him.. U are forgiven only if you return....

But I not here to give a sermon (like what Justin would do.. XP)

Well, I am blogging becoz of the supernatural day I experience, not that I am like some holy guy but it is just that today I woke up with his song stuck in my head... The song my "mum" danced too the previous day in the Live Concert.. Gotta admit a bit hard to watch the dance last night coz I was pulled more to the song.. :X

Ok... Got nothing to do with it, it is becoz I had the song in my head, I started to play it on the piano... Like from random, it become to the song.. Amazing... LOL.. then I found out the song title only now hence I can search for it.. It is amazing!! It was like the spirit empowered me to play it...

Then another one came.. "how could I keep from singing your praise".. This is a old song, but I did not have this song chord nor score yet i played it.. it felt like something I played before.. Dont know why leh.. Got that weird feeling... It was crazy!! but hey God is almighty.. He did it, he played it...

Oh ya, I think the song Safe is nice too :D Enjoy.. :D (I did not go search for the "How can I keep from singing your praise" coz I got hear before like when I was sec 1...)

And thsi video is to help me understand the song better.. :D

Your Identity??

Hm.. I am so sad, coz I am feeling rather unwell today, maybe because we had to play in rain for our National Match then it got postponed.. :( Sian.. LOL.. So that means tomorrow I will be studying for just one hour then going off to play le.. I feel like in Sports School sia, all play little studying.. haha..

Ok, but this is not what I want to talk about... I was like resting then later I recalled Saturday...

And hm.. So I recalled this:

My mum, Pearl lor -.-, ask me this question or at least she did ask me this... (I forgot how our conversation became until like that.. haha..) "What are 4 things you identify yourself as??" then of course I will answer lor... I said" Soccer player, Child of God, Student(reluctantly) and restless boy"

Ahhaahh... yup, I said restless boy, that is why I have been so mischievous :D and so playful most of the time... For example, why do I always get chased around in school, sometimes during class time.. LOL..

But then she was actually asking what do I identify myself as?? And then many of the above tio cancelled out... For example, a soccer player.... It is not who I identify myself as.. It is more of what the world identifies you as...

SO this is what I want to say..... Will, how often do we accept what the world label us as?? How often to we behave what we aren't? Many of times, we will behave according to how people believe us to be, whether a soccer player, nerd or something..

Many struggle with the problem of acceptance from the world, yet we always do not bother about the fact that you are DEEPLY LOVED, RICHLY BLESSED, and HIGHLY FAVOURED by God. We have never really seen ourself in the way God looks at us, how he identifies as??

So have you been trying to find your true identity?? Or have you been behaving the way people identify you as?? Now, let as not care about these non-valid identities but the true identity is and can only be found in God.

P.S I not sure whether what I writing, you do understand totally, but you get the draft idea right??