Collage USS

Hi peeps, could concentrate on homework, so I decided to do up a collage on my trip to USS... Was browsing through pictures lah. Found them!! So reviews on the collage? Haha!! :D

Here is the blod post link if you forgot about the post!! Pretty cool post, and it will explain to you the background of the collage yea ;)

http://boredomoutput.blogspot.com/2011/11/time-at-rws-uss.html

The Tide is turning..

Hehe!! Opted for a imaginary story telling session now!! Wee....

And what better way than to get a continuation of the part 1 between the two kingdoms??

Haha!!

Well, remember about how the weaker nation was always on the back-foot? And how he longs for it to end soon...

So want to know Part 2? Are u up for it?? Haha!!

Well, I won't say the battle has ended, but for the past few months, the kings has constantly been going out into the battlefield and has been watching the battle daily... And guess what he saw? The most amazing thing! He saw an opportunity! And OPPORTUNITY!!

He saw that there was chance he could improve his chances of victory if he managed to grab this opportunity and make the best use of it!! But it wasn't going to be easy, it would take something from him. It would require a sacrifice..It would need him to go in person and he needed to take time of his schedule... But after weighting both the pros and cons, he decided to take that risk. Had he not managed it well, and it back-fired against him. The war would as good as become a lost cause (not that it had not already seemed like it..)

It wasn't easy, but when an opportunity comes your way, you should take it into your stride. I dont want to contradict the simply your life teaching but you need to grab that opportunity with two hands when it arrives. Grab only the opportunity that we help you in your cause that you are fighting in life. Don't take every thing, just the necessary yea ;)

Okok, back to the story.. What was the outcome??

Thank goodness he did take that risk!! ;) He might not been able to fully maximize the opportunity but at least he has managed to improve the chances of victory of his side. Having taken that step of faith, that step out of his comfort zone, and trying to adapt was tough. It was never easy, but he did his best. And that is good enough for now...

So now, he finds himself in a new situation. For once, he has a really chance of winning, and in a way, this might work against him. Now that the battle is there to be won, he should go for the victory!! So he is in a new situation a good one, but he needs to adapt again, but will he be able to do it? Will he be able to maneuver his men to victory. Lets hope he knows how because the attack will not lessen!! and the Fight will not cease until the clear victor emerges....

Vivo

Hi, just one short and proper post..

Today, I went with my family to Vivo!! Wee.. And we ate at Carnivore!! Shiok!! So much meat until I was bloated, doubt I can even eat breakfast and lunch tomorrow! Haha!!

Well, then we decided to talk a stroll.. And that was when all the connection trigger returned.. Sorry lah, still in deep mode.. :/

Haha!! First was something super shameless that happened, haizz.. Dont want to say, it was super epic. After that, confirm no face see people :( Haha!! I was like serious contemplating face-palming ! Haha!! But I did not!! :D

Well, then I realize that today was the 24 Jan, and I after eating dinner when we went strolling. It felt like 2011 all of a sudden. It was like as I was walking, it was inception into the past. Instead of spending time with my family, it felt like I was spending time with Pearl. Well, simply because we celebrate her birthday on this exact day around the same time and at the exact same place.. Inception much!! Well, rather cool mind-blowing stuff if you ask me... It took the fireworks display to wake me up, and also the not so starry night sky to make me come to my senses that its not 2011 anymore.

Its no more, "I going Serve tomorrow" but its "I got school tomorrw, with huge workload and tests to study for :( "

Haiz, how time passes don't you think.. :( One year has actually passed, and I did not really knew what hit me. But either way, my stomach is satisfied ;) Weeee!! happy!!

Haha!! Proper post leh ;) Hehe!!

The Promise

Hi guys, my brain has currently been flooded with my thoughts.. In a way, its good because I needed it to think for D.I's Fantastic Four!! but now that I have 'so called" done my part, the thoughts won't disappear!!

Well, what are the thoughts about? A promise...

I am not sure how people go into deep thought mode. For me, I must have heard an emo song then the train of thoughts will start flowing. Like you recall your past, then its like a flashback that happens to rapidly that it like so many things are flooding you.. So I really require to get it off my chest, perhaps saying it out hear could help me because I don't want to be haunted my them when I finally return to the torrid fast paced lifestyle I used to have in 2 weeks time.

On friday, during CNY celebration for school, there was this performance by one of your students and he was singing us a few students. I would say his singing is pretty zai lah, but it was the song that he sang that made me look up for the first time in the WHOLE 3 hour concert (yes, I was 9gaging the whole concert away until then..) Guess what he sang??

This song!!


Well, you might be like, whats so bad about this song. Hm.. Its still chinese right...!! I will give the death stare yo!! haha!! Nah, the reason why I would say what the picture below shows is because this song reminded me of my past.. Yes, I have a past and a little secret, that only perhaps 3 people out of 6-7 billion people on this Earth ever know! If you one of those 3, be happy, you are special! ;) If you are not, not fear, you aint the only one! Haha!! As he was singing, you got no escape, so I had entered the deep thought mode. And I am like:

 

Haha!! Just joking... I failed to divert those thought to something proper and hence it went back into that very moment in my past. Well, the movie reminded me of that little promise, or it reminded me why I choose make that promise. Won't tell u the promise :P but after I get this off my chest, you might figure a bit of the events that happen back then..

Let me just rant, you can choose not to read it too ;) I will type it in a way to confuse you, and mislead you so be careful with what you read, it could lead you astray! Wakaka!! Ok, I will rant now..

"I am reaching the end of it all, hearing that song and getting reminded that my contract is expiring in 9's time. And now that i feel like I am no more boy, and more of a guy all of a sudden. I have realize my taste in clothes, my style has all changed. Even my taste buds changed, I dont prefer to drink gassy drinks like coke no more. Instead, going to root beer, milk coffee or milk tea!! OMG!! I seem like I don't look like I grew up with my time spent mostly under the void decks and playing soccer. Ok the soccer maybe yes, but void deck, maybe not. Or that just my personal opinion.

I just dislike growing up. Being that little boy enabled me to just focus on fun, and be that boy on an adventure, and only be a man (during soccer matches) on a mission (totally focus on winning the match) when needed to be. But what happens when guys grow up, they start to ......

Ok, I will reveal something (not trolling for this paragraph onli ;P).. I like to foresee and predict things that will happen. In a way play God, if you put it in layman's terms. I tend to predict if the ball will go out, if this attack during a soccer match will lead to a goal, if this girl and guy will get together or if this nerd will get trip himself up. Ok, being evil there :/ Haha.. Ya, just predict.. Though, I keep them to myself, I tend to predict.Coz if I say, it might not be pleasant.. So I have predict something myself. I can be wrong at times, so hopefully I am this time round.

If I have really grown up at not just that I am in dove mode and slacking and not doing all the childish crazy stuff, this few months are going to be hard. Especially when there is still 9's time. I won't break my promises. I try my hardest, or actually I made it a priority to keep them.. Pinky promises = will not break, 100% therefore pinky promises to me are like the highest level. Sorry lah, I still live in children land ok ;P So if  (touch wood) somehow ....... then I will have a torrid time for 9's time!

*well, I can't bear to continue, I will just leave this hanging then....* Sry :( Haha!! I am just hoping it will not happen..

So to make it up, here's something random or not so random?



I am a blur sotong at love affairs! Totally! I will never be able to tell if a girl like me, seriously, I am just like that main character who is as stupid as me and blind as me to not realize that this girl liked him (I was watching some movie lah, find myself similar to the guy. Wish I could hi-five him! Hehe!!). Oh well, as for me, I doubt I will have. I am a very high peacock for a reason, you know. But I will totally need someone to blatantly spell it out. Haha!! Just like him!! Fail TTM UCMA!!




P.S I think some of u can guess everything and understand everything I just wrote.. I aint a good actor. And thankful for that!!

Growing Up

Hi peeps, this is a pretty random post. Ok, maybe not..

Well, I just feel like I have grown up right now. Going around SG visiting relatives felt so weird. I always tio whack with a few questions.

Just as:

"When you finish studying??"
My reply: 'this year. Next year need go army le.."
(then the talk begins.. Its either about me soon no hair, wah so fast grow up le. or .. you know.. LOL..)

or

"How's your soccer?"
When I hear that, it probably is not looking good. You know why? Because my reply is, "ok lah, now currently injured. SO I can't play soccer for 6 weeks."
(Then they will tell me, play soccer no future one lah. Aiyo, we in SG not England lah. You will suffer when you reach 30s, here pain, there pain... Quit soccer lah, get injured for what..)

or

This one is epic, "do u want to drink(wine)?? " Then I will reply, but I am only 17!! Not of age leh!! Trololol!! And yes, I do not drink.. :P I am a good boy! LOL.. They could even ask me, "When u getting your driving license?"  I will give them that mind-blown face!! It seems like I look older than 17 sia! People asking me if I 18 le ah, then I, "huh? haven't lah" Super fail sia, I feel like facepalming sia!!

HAha!! But I should be thankful, because despite them thinking I am older than my age, they never ask me if I got girlfriend. Super duper safe.. Phew, if not I would have been put in a awkward moment....Haha!!

Ok, lets get serious to why I feel like I am old..

Right now, I am still trying to understand if I have actually grown up!! Because I always thought I will forever be that playful trolling adorable and cute little boy! haha!! So, I am trying to find an excuse or a reason or a few reasons..

Seeing your little nephews and all mad me feel like I have grown up so much... I don't drop to their level no more. No more jumping around and being so talkative. Maybe I because I am tired, but I doubt it.. For once, I was sitting at the table and talking with the adults! So weird ttm!! Though, I would drift out into outer space because they all speaking in either dialect or chinese, all foreign language lah, but still, I don't play with the younger kids no more!! >.< And today, I dressed almost exactly like my dad sia!! OMG!! GG!! I feel old! I feel like I have just attended a children camp and am feeling so old!! Haizz..

Maybe, its a transition period from me being a boy to me being a guy, then next year, from me being a guy to a man?? Idk?! :/ I am a bit too lazy to go into the deep stuff. I need my brain to think of the deep stuff for D.I bday lah! Haha!!

P.S, probably not well written or well epress. Sry. I am a lazy boy!! :P Hehe!!

CNY

Hi peeps! Was tempted to write a long imaginary story but I am feeling to lazy. So I just converted this into a CNY post yea :)

Hahaha!! Gong Xi Fa Cai! Honestly, I don't even know what that means. :/ Oh well.. We all know that CNY is just round the corner. But unlike every year. This year, I have not gone shopping for my CNY clothes!! GG ttm!! Aiyoyo!! Lazy lah!! So this year, must reuse clothes!! Cheapo ttm!! Ohno :O

So mayebe this CNY will be different? Ok, maybe not. I will still attempt to not eat the snacks. But I think when I see Pineapple tarts, One will fall into temptation and grow FAT!! Noooo!! >.< Haha!! Nothing really deep today, just want to practice my keyboard for tomorrow!! Wee, PE band leading for the first time this year!! :O Its going to be very rare to see PE band up on stage together this year. Because of Army, and attachment and major exams.. Haizz.. Oh well, all of us are busy men.

Going to sign off here, liaoz... Need think for D.I bday too!! :O Haha!! Can;t wait for the ang bao though!! Hehe!! :D

New Year Resolution

OMG!!!! I feel enlighten all of a sudden!!

Well, like I have said before. I have not thought of new year resolutions, but after today. I perhaps have them now..

Well, unlike normal new year resolutions that last for a year. My resolutions are goals that will take a few years or a lifetime to complete...

For example, my new year resolution for Rhema is not really a new year. I has been the same since 2009, which is to see each and every single boy grow deeper in God spiritually and see us grow as a cell group. It has not change since 2009 and I won't be changing it in 2012! So as you can see, its not a 1 year thing. This resolution might take 1 years, 20 years or a lifetime but hey, this is what I call a proper new year resolution. Not like some, I want do well for A's resolution -.- (Ok, actually, I also want do well for A's but at the end of the day, that cert is a valuable as my Chinese Language. Totally useless!!)

Hence, my resolutions are to stick to the old ones!! Haha!! And what are they?? Perhaps some needed editing so I have done so..

For Rhema, I want to see every boy grow to love God, to grow deeper in the knowledge of God, and to see the cell multiply. Disclaimer, I won't be able to do this via my own strength. But throught God, this is possible!!

For Encounter Service Team (EST), I want to keyboard skills but here comes the additions. Here is the goal. I want to play music from the keyboard that is able to move the hearts of people. Not just nice meaningless melodies, but music that can move hearts.. Well, moving hearts, is something only God can do so, again, I need him in this department. So its no more just wanting to improve aimlessly.. :D

For Soccer, its the same as last year. Just to enjoy playing the game. This will be my last year playing for JJC, and might be the last time I touch the ball competitively, thus, I just want to give my all and have fun.. :D

As for my individual self, I do have many goals, many resolutions. Some I can share, and some I won't on this blog....

I want to feel God, I want a fresh touch from God, to be transformed. I want to be more patient (after what happen last year, I still do blame myself at times for it hence I want to change!!), I want to be more people orientated, not task orientated.. And well, a lot more that I will not share... 

So yupyup, that most of them, and may God help me!!.. This are not one off goals, there will could take years.. :/

JJ open House

Today, JJC had their open house!! Hehe!! But this post will not be the open house because it was super super boring.. I was actually reading my notes aka studying for tmr's biology test!! >.< haha!! But this post will be about the soccer match of JJC vs Greenridge Sec

Well, I did not sit and watch the whole match but I did watch them and well, I will admit it, the standard was not up to standard..

And just watching it, I felt too helpless, so frustrated because Greenridge players were diving and I could not do anything about it..

I dont know why I felt like that. Usually, I wont feel anything because I am still finding back my love to run on the pitch with the ball and trying to rekindle my love for soccer. Perhaps it was because there was a lot of fans watching this match as it was the Open house. I really don't know..

Perhaps, what I desire is to be watch at when I play soccer. I have been thinking about it and the most satisfying thing a footballer can get is that when a person watches him play, and then says he is good. That is perhaps the most rewarding thing someone can receive.

Well, so perhaps that has been that missing factor all those while. That has been what I was wanting all along?? Maybe?? But it could also then perhaps be the fact that some of my friends do want me get injured, and I am been withholding myself from playing the game to my full capabilities and try to stop myself from snaking my way pass defenders so that might mean that I don't get that sense of thrill doing such stuff and perhaps it resulted in me not loving the game I play.. :/

I really don't know why, I don't know what cause me to stop loving soccer but after watching the match in the stands. Hearing them cheer on the team, I kept telling myself that it should be me there absorbing those cheers!! Haizz... I do miss playing in front of crowds. I really do. It was great playing in the National Final but that was the highlight of perhaps my 'mini' career.

And I that feeling of being helpless was really painful. That is the emotion that will spur you on to do things beyond your capabilities and that what I have not felt for a long long time. But I do wish to return to the field and play my last year of soccer competitively. Or hopefully it will be, cause I got a feeling that I made a promise to not play soccer in Uni, or did I? 0.o??

At least now I know I want to return to playing soccer but I am not sure what would happen if I meet a strong opposition and am unable to make a fool of him. And he is able to make me not play my game and I won't get those cheers if it is an empty stadium. Will I still be happy to play the game even if people are not there and I am unable to make a huge impact.. :/ IDK again and that is a worry.. :/

Hm.. I think I am a troubled boy by this :/ Haha!! But the main gest is come a watch me play and support me lah :D Haha!! I do like to play in front of crowds but don't give me that sad face when I get injured hor, it will stop me from playing my game wholeheartedly.. :(

The Notice board

Hehe!! Hi guys!!

Today, my post is about doing up the JJC soccer board!! Haha!!

Well, I think you guys know that I am injured and all, yet I need to attend soccer training so I decided to help the soccer guys and do up the notice board.

Before, I show you how it looks like. I got to tell you that the previous one done before I changed it was horrible!! >.< OMG!! It was a fail board!! >.<

So I "so called" transformed it!! Wakaka!! Well, I spent like 5 hours just doing it because I was tanking ti by myself as the other trained. Of course, I got some help from people to draw the stuff that I CMI, but overall, I am pretty satisfied with the board.. :/

It's my first time doing up a notice board and well, I encounter problems like the things not turning out as expected.. :/ And tanking it all alone was time-consuming!! Ouch!! But then just looks at the product, felt satisfying :D Haha!!

But doing this board, it got me wondering how painful it is to do a nice, beautiful handmade card.. :/ Usually, I would do my cards using software so it easy :/ So perhaps I will try to do my next  card handmade!! Haha!!

Flashbacks

Flashbacks... They are somethings that will never leave me.

Well, hi peeps, you should able to tell what I will be talking about right?

Hm.. I hope that most of you know what I am talking about,  and that you do know that my brain tends to remember things pretty well. I don't know why, but I am usually able to recall things very well.. Mmm.. A reason why I am able to do so, is becaus eI like to replay the scene in  my brain everyday before I sleep.. :/

Well, so I am able to recall the memories I have, the happy and the sad ones. I remember Pei Xuan saying that we do not forget our past, or we don't forget the bitter ones. Hm.. I think its true, the bitter ones where the ones that cut us, or perhaps some scar us. These are our memories, our life, and truly precious because they made us into being who we are today, how we might react in certain situation and such.

But it brings to my next point. These memories tend to flood my brain at times. Especially if I decide to take a bus ride, and blast music into my ears. Some are epic, some are painful, some are happy. But usually, the sad ones tend to return more often then not. Sometimes, the memory is so vivid, its so detailed and you actually feel like its dejavu! And I would start trying to run away, like trying to wake myself up from this flashback. I try to run away, and have been trying to run away. Giving excuses on why those things happened, trying to comfort myself and all, and simply trying to run away. 

Well, everyone says its a new year, its time to let go of the past. But it that really possible?! I can't do it! I simply can't. Its like a battle constantly being fought and its affects me outwardly at times. Thats why I am a guy that would sometimes prefer a lonely journey home to try and embrace it instead or I don't take a bus. I am not sure if you understand what I am saying but in layman's terms, its this:

When will we (I believe some of you will feel the same way too) stop running away from those unpalatable memories, those that have perhaps scar us, and start to embrace them? I remember watching "KungFu Panda 2", and it was talking about letting go. Isnt it time to embrace them, stop running away, stop letting those events become barriers for you! Mistakes are meant to be made, painful events were meant to happen for a reason. Its life, embrace it and stop running. 

Its a new year, a new start. I have not made any resolution. I haven't thought about them yet, so oh well. 2012 kinda came too fast? Haha!! Happy 2012!! Lolll (No link to the post)

The Raging Battle

The story of the raging battle.

Hm... Today, I will put a lot of question marks on your forehead with this post.

So lets start a story telling. Its imaginary one again, do not fear ;)

Its been 2-3 years yet the battle is still on going..

The 2 kingdoms have been fighting so vigorously for the past few years, with none looking to give up the battle. But it is obvious that one kingdom is stronger than the other. Yet the weaker one refuses to give in. Instead, he stands up and fight for it!! Fighting for 2-3 years yet none wants to give in to the other, it shows the amount of desire both sides have, don't you think?

As a neutral, you will be just waiting for the stronger, more experienced kingdom to win wouldn't you? But I have wondered about the weaker one.

The amount of times the King will question himself whether it is worth it to continue fighting. Resources are constantly depleting for the weaker nation. The stronger nation constantly has new weapons, new tactics. Perhaps its due the vast experience it has, or other reasons. But it does not diminish the fact that the weaker nation is up against the Goliath. The King, he constantly question if it is worth it to continue fighting. The more he continues the fight, the more resources that were meant for other stuff are being used. And it could lead to dire consequences if he over allocates some resources into the battle. So he question himself, but everything he thinks he should pull out, he can't bare to lose what is at stake. If he gives up, he gives up something he really wants.

Hm.. So as the battle rages on, the more his resources deplete and the more he considers whether to give in. Yet, we know that he won't simply because he considers giving up now a real waste. He has fought a hard and difficult battle. He can see that he is on the back-foot, and he has been on the back-foot for most of the battle. I find it really amazing how this one man is driven by desire, by determination and he continues to fight on, fight a battle many people will deem as a losing battle for him. Just this phrase, "When you feel like giving up, look back at how far you have come."

So how does he press on, what enables to press on? Well, I believe from all that was written, you can see he is driven by desire. The love for that thing, and constant desire for that thing is what  has been driving him.  So what are his hopes?

They are simple. It is simply to win. To be victorious, to finally win. He hopes this battle will be concluded soon because there were come a day when he has to admit that he has got no more firepower to muster another attack nor even defend his kingdom one day. But he hopes then when its concluded, it will be him and his kingdom celebrating! 

But as long as the battle is still raging, there is no way he will be giving up. There is no way that he will lighten up his efforts. Yes, he may need to look into the needs of other things, divert his attention to them, but lets admit it, losing focus of his goal will be something that perhaps he will never forgive himself. It will be an uphill battle, one that he promises to fight on.

*Hoped you enjoy the story, might not be well written, but interpret in your own ways bah :)*