I DOn't care

A mind that thinks, but all the thoughts are like rojak. Really rojak, everywhere anyhow everything.

Finding a person's weakness, personality. Well, I figured out I'm pretty hard to read and figure out my personality. Have been trying too..

Well, been scanning my timeline, (no, not FB one. I mean, recalling everything that has happen before. Thats my brain's timeline. Something way better than FB consider my brain's great ability to recall sequences of events..) and figured out that I have upon built myself upon some verse that I read in Pri 6 and Sec 1. I'm amazed, so I was already consolidating my morals at such a young age? Wow!

Of course, I wouldn't say it here. Thats isn't me. Ask and you shall receive. But nah, no one asks so I don't care.

Okok, I met my friend up and we were like talking about whether I have the essence of a Hong Kah student. I said I doubted so, he said no really which is good, I grew  up there, but never conform to any of their ways. Except perhaps for one thing. The "I don't care" attitude.

Good thing or not, I don't know. I will continue carrying and tanking all of it on myself, being one who can withstand much torture because I don't care. Sometimes that attitude is good, helping me calm people around me during the A's period as they see I ain't worried despite my results being. Yup, you know. But then again, it means I don't feel a strong need to rush when I am late. I remember CHRISTmas@DI, and how I was still happily not bothered my the time constraint despite being way being schedule. Thats one side of me, most people have seen hence my willing to reveal it. But for those, who didn't, I'm impressed at the lack of observation or lack of being in my presence perhaps. I apologize. I have a sharp tongue that I have been controlling but doesn't mean I would unleash it, and also my inability to understand how people are not aware of their surrounding, processing the details surrounding them and doing up a plan.

But as I end, when I say "I don't", I could just be a guy just putting up a front of being strong for others, or a
guy that is too dumb to be vulnerable. Then again, I could just wash my hands clean. The complication I present myself with. Really my own worst enemy.

20 Jan 2013

A bad day in the office today.

My first soccer match of the year. I am exhausted. Wow, never knew army guys are so fit. Really bad day, because I was super tired, being the one who had to constantly be defending. Well, wasn't having the best of days defending especially when you had 3 people constantly attacking your side such that you do know whether to make the tackle or hold your position. Wow, frustrating day.

I was really exhausted after 45 mins of playing. Really being stretched and being exploited for not keeping my fitness up to date, or well. :/ Just a bad day and I am a bit irritated and angry at myself. Hmph!!

Went to King Louis to eat dinner. Well, that was probably the high of the day. Does not each day have its highs and lows? That is what a day consist of. Thats why I still think no day will be best of my life, but I can make the best of everyone of them still.

King Louis was nice. I won't say much though..

Some panoroma for you all...

Yup, my siblings decided to jam abit there too..

Life is like a Piano

When life gets too routine, 
when fatigue sets in,
you ponder what are you doing with your life, 
you wonder when will this nightmare end.

Life is like a piano isn't it? The picture speaks for itself and that is why I love the piano. I ain't very skilled in it, but when I get to play it without restriction, to come out with a tune, I actually get to tell a story.

Is that not the beauty of music?

Hope to make my room into a story after its renovated. 

But I have come to realize, people never knew the real reason why I picked up the piano, why I support Liverpool FC, why I was so adamant that I wanted my room to look like this, why and why and why. The truth has yet to be revealed. 

A Guardian Angel

A Guardian Angel.

Well, funny thought I had on the bus.

Would not everyone wish they had a guardian angel. Someone who has been looking after them? Technically, everyone has because everyone has friends. And by right, they do look after you but yet just to that certain extent.

What then is my idea of a Guardian Angel?

Someone who mysterious appears in your life when you need him. He is lurking around you but you just don't know where. You want him to show his face but he won't. You fail to out-smart him, to find out who he is. Yet he actually appears in front of you occasionally, at those times when you least expect. You don't know, but he knows. He looks after you, knows you really well because he lurks around you. Working behind the scenes. Doesn't complain but does his job. Yet the question is why? What good does it do to him?


But I realize sometimes being a guardian angel doesn't pay off especially if that angel never appears in front of you, only doing stuff for you behind your back. No words of gratitude. Its a tough job especially when there seems to be no reward at the end of it. Poor thing, I gotta say. Then again love is sacrificial.

Les Miserables

Watched Les Miserables yesterday. Great musical...



After watch the extended look, I blown away seeing the behind the scene

Random Boredom Island 2013

Since I have been sharing videos, I thought maybe lets have a laugh a bit...

Let prayer be so honest. Heard so many prayers in my life. But the most lovely ones were the honest ones. To hear someone pray things close to him. You don't hear the formal prayers, but the intimate ones. When you tell God every little thing under the Sun.  Interacting rather than requesting.

One Thing Remains. Through each season, only a few things stay constant. Death, Change and God.

First Week of 2013

So... What am I suppose to update on?

How I nearly died? How good Passion 2013 was? How am now back to the busy going out with my friends during the holiday? Or how my $$$ is actually depleting!?!

Ok, the season of my life hasn't change. I am too lazy to wallow in self-pity. Erm... So ya, Yue Seng is still hanging on.

Well, what is/would be the best day of your life. Ask this honest question and be real. I dislike people giving be textbook answer just because its the best and theoretically correct answer. (If one did not need to be accountable for one's action. I would have killed many people by kicking their heads, twisting their necks in the process hence their death.) So what would your answer be? If the textbook answer is truly your own answer then well, good for you :)

Tomorrow? Today? Some day in the past?

Technically, what I just gave was Past, Present, Future. But try and ponder about it. I pondered about it, my honest answer was still the day I die. I did enjoy some good times or just better phrases and seasons in life and if I could relive them, I wouldn't mind. But pragmatism takes over, and its all is just a nice dream.

Although the textbook answer is make everyday the best day of your life because its a day spent with God.

A mindset change, a mindset change. Totally been challenged the past week. Perhaps one day I will reach that point. Let it be some day soon. The game has began for me. May the odds ever be in my favour.