In the journey of life, there would always be storms.. But never did I expect to experience a tsunami in my entire life..
Storms are present in our lives so that the glory of God may be revealed. And so that the beloved kids of God will return to Him, that their eyes are fixed back onto God. And as for tsunami, they happen so that the whole heart may be broken and a molding process may begin.
Storm after storm after storm after storm, have brought me to a place prepared to undergo another painful turmoil. As my life goes on, after 3 years experiencing a tsunami, a new storm appears. Yet a storm is overcome so much quicker than a tsunami. Through the tsunami, lessons and testimonies have been forged. These events will forever be written down in my chapters of my life.
Constant suffering and hurt, immense pain experienced, trapped in a deep dark pit for 3 years... I will never speak of it, nor would I ever care to explain. The only people who will ever know it are 2 people in this entire universe.
As 2013 slowly draws the curtains.. The major exams are up. The storms in people's lives are starting to up about.. Seeing the anxiety, sensing the stress and fear..
But in every season, God doesn't let you fight alone. I have come to realize that my experience are each a story to tell, a story to prove and testify the greatness of God. Yes, when I look back at almost every milestone in my life. Its been a battle of faith, of just throwing caution to the wind, jump of that cliff and trust I will be caught in the midst of the fall.
And after every event.... every miracle... People forget.
Well, its a good time for me to reflect and remember.. And what better way to remember through songs.
First off, Still by Hillsong. Yes, its still my billboard no. 1 hit. Because I didn't choose this song by its tune, rhythm, melody or whatever else there is. I chose it because of the words it speaks.
"When the oceans rise and the thunders roar,
I will soar with You above the storm.
Father, You are king over flood.
I will be still, and know You are God..."
The chorus of this song has been sometimes the sole reason behind every ounce of determination I manage to muster. Some people know me to be someone who will never give up, which is true. Yet there were times, when I could not bring myself to press on. I'm only human but He's only God. Its STILL my favorite and well probably will stay there at the top until I die perhaps?
However, there were of course songs for the season. When that song speaks so dearly to you during that phrase of life, that trial you are undergoing and it only spoke so strongly during that season. Well, I have had those moments. You don't expect the song 'Still" to be the song that will speak the most to me all the time, right?
In those days, when O'level was daunting... The song was "Today is the day" by Lincoln Brewster. Or I preferred his version. It was bubbly, and telling me to just take a step at a time.
Thus, next up is "I lift my hands" by Chris Tomlin. Every time I hear this song, I'm reminded of my J1 promos. I remember the nights when I couldn't stop crying. Remember the nights when I was so super stress, I took a guitar and played it for a whole good 2 hours. Remembering how I was pushed in a corner, beaten and bruised, things were in such a horrible state. It was do or die. It got me thinking what was I doing with my life. My choices and decision. Words won't be able to fully depict the whole situation to you. I remember the peace after a 2 hours prayer session. A peace that was present throughout the whole period, even though things seemed like they were heading to doomsday unless everything would work out perfectly but what chances were there? Turned out, the chances of that happening would be 100% in God's book.
I hoped you enjoyed the song, but most importantly, may you be blessed by it.
We will skip 2012 for reasons I don't feel like revealing. But as for 2013, the song of the season has been....
Well, this year has a really different feel than the other songs. Also 2013 has been a year I have been placed out in the desert, in places I have been forced to carefully and cleverly devise a plan. Only to figure out, God's ways are not my ways. Bless the Lord, Oh my soul. I realized this song wasn't meant to be sang in the happy seasons but in the painful ones. It is sang with much pain, and determination to still worship and praise God. Or at least, this was my revelation.
And after every event.... every miracle... People forget.
Well, its a good time for me to reflect and remember.. And what better way to remember through songs.
First off, Still by Hillsong. Yes, its still my billboard no. 1 hit. Because I didn't choose this song by its tune, rhythm, melody or whatever else there is. I chose it because of the words it speaks.
"When the oceans rise and the thunders roar,
I will soar with You above the storm.
Father, You are king over flood.
I will be still, and know You are God..."
The chorus of this song has been sometimes the sole reason behind every ounce of determination I manage to muster. Some people know me to be someone who will never give up, which is true. Yet there were times, when I could not bring myself to press on. I'm only human but He's only God. Its STILL my favorite and well probably will stay there at the top until I die perhaps?
However, there were of course songs for the season. When that song speaks so dearly to you during that phrase of life, that trial you are undergoing and it only spoke so strongly during that season. Well, I have had those moments. You don't expect the song 'Still" to be the song that will speak the most to me all the time, right?
In those days, when O'level was daunting... The song was "Today is the day" by Lincoln Brewster. Or I preferred his version. It was bubbly, and telling me to just take a step at a time.
Thus, next up is "I lift my hands" by Chris Tomlin. Every time I hear this song, I'm reminded of my J1 promos. I remember the nights when I couldn't stop crying. Remember the nights when I was so super stress, I took a guitar and played it for a whole good 2 hours. Remembering how I was pushed in a corner, beaten and bruised, things were in such a horrible state. It was do or die. It got me thinking what was I doing with my life. My choices and decision. Words won't be able to fully depict the whole situation to you. I remember the peace after a 2 hours prayer session. A peace that was present throughout the whole period, even though things seemed like they were heading to doomsday unless everything would work out perfectly but what chances were there? Turned out, the chances of that happening would be 100% in God's book.
I hoped you enjoyed the song, but most importantly, may you be blessed by it.
We will skip 2012 for reasons I don't feel like revealing. But as for 2013, the song of the season has been....
Well, this year has a really different feel than the other songs. Also 2013 has been a year I have been placed out in the desert, in places I have been forced to carefully and cleverly devise a plan. Only to figure out, God's ways are not my ways. Bless the Lord, Oh my soul. I realized this song wasn't meant to be sang in the happy seasons but in the painful ones. It is sang with much pain, and determination to still worship and praise God. Or at least, this was my revelation.
