Sec 3 Camp

Wow, This camp was a roller coaster ride sia!!!

I went there hoping to have fun and enjoy myself but got nothing of such sort on the first day but then everything changed on the second day and I suddenly felt sad it had to end... :(

Well, let me explain then, coz i doubt you understand....

DAY 1:
[Friday] I went too school ready for adventure!! Ready to enjoy myself!! LOL... And getting too see everyone's SS paper. How could Shao Wei beat me!! :( GG... Then I was quite fun hiding all the banned items from the teachers such as my wallet, handphone!! :D LOL... Lucky, my earpiece was not confisicated coz I forgot to hide it on myself... LOL... Lucky me... Then we boarded the bus to go to our destination and MOOD SWING!! Sian.. I turn sianed the moment I saw how sian my instructor were... Or at least one.. LOL.. I also got sian maybe cause I wanna listen to music then keep on asking us to do some "Hungry Cheer" and some other dumb remixes. So I turned sian.... Then reached there le, things became worse. The Chief Razif was so stricted that any hope of fun was taken away and thrown into the sea!! So I become more sian... then later put into the group whose Instructor also look so sian... And strict... I SUPER sian!! Sian until cannot tahan!! Then the next few hours was spent eating then preparing for campfire but it felt like it was preparing for war with our Instructor coz we also tio scolded for "what was considered just talking and nothing done" which was actually we were discussing on what to do!! Freestyle considered messy...Of course lah!! So I got sian and anrgy.. Even more as every second past... Then I was nearly going to burst for once in a camp.. Never have I lost my cool in any kind of camp.. this time, I almost... Then there was night game where they go hide Jia Jun aka mushroom. and I think that might help improve our super strained relationship with our instructor coz for the first time, she lively by a bit. Then we had fun bah.. Mushroom so heavy sia!! LOL....

Some pictures to sum up day 1: BOREDOM!!




Day 2:
[Saturaday] Phew. That day was really the total opposite of the day before!! I did the CRC!! Which was fun!! It was so high up that I could see the sea!! Cool lor.. But once you long down, Can be a bit scared to that your first step on the plank that keeps on shaking lor... But I completed in like half the time Jared took it lor.. Scared but Conquered it :D!! LOL.. The funny part was when returning bck to the ground. the fact I saw a spider on the plank.. I chiong down the log to the ground like as if I spiderman sia. Never even lose footing also.... LOL... But after that, we experienced boredom again coz the girls go do the rock climbing then you watch them, like as if watching Jared do the CRC!! But they worse, none reached the top... But wat can I say??... Then we had luch... Which is very fun actually coz we did the Jian Zhe cheer and sing the school song. (Note: then school song, we go change lyrics until hilarious!! That is why is was fun.. ) :D LOL... then we had the Low Wall, Which was painful when you have a few heavy people to lift up and get them over the wall!! Pain sia!! I pity myself and Danial. Thnk Sebest and Jonas for taking over for a while though..

Here are a few Pictures taken by Yi Qun to help explain the game...






Then we had kayaking!! Shiok man!! My boat capsized and best part was that I did not know how to swim.. Lucky got life jacket and it was fun to make the boat capsized coz by standing only on one side and rocking it sideways, ya. You confirm capsized!!! Shiok, and I was calm :D Never panic sia... :D shiok, why never let me do somemore... When asked to somplete last task. The guy see me stand, straight away say, never stay at your places, say I troublemaker :D Shiok wat LOL... That is something that does not happen anytime... LOL.. I turned crazy le... LOL..

Then it was campfire prepartion.. It was fun dncing to the song "Beat it"!! Very fun lor!!



LOL.. then campfire where Yan hong entertain us very well, his dance steps were a joke!!! LOL.. I also know how to dance like that lor...It was super funny. video in facebook!! LOL... Our dance also there... :D Campfire was fun when you see Yan Hong dance, or when you are the one dancing to the song "Beat it"..Well that was more or so the enjoyable second day in sec 3 camp...

Day 3:
We did our clean up of the pace then zao lor... And later, I got to eat Jack's Place :D

P.S i got a new found hatred for mosquitoes also... And sry for the late posts, I am always having camps now a days

School Sucks!!!

Totally agreed dude!! LOL... I just agreed with myself...

Well, School currently stinks cause all you see is people emo-ing at the fact that they are dropping stream or retaining due to their poor results. But at the same time, I feel helpless. Cause I am also facing problems of my own, I don't know what should I do....

Well, It is really stressful cause I wanna do very well for my O'level yet at the same time, I want to keep my choices open as I have not decided on where do I want to go, What do I want to do....

So I really need help, I hoped that after my exams, I would be able to have more time to concentrated and focused on God, Get back on track as I feel that at times, I feel that I am off track and not in line with God.

I don't know whether to drop biology as I fear that I might not be able to cope with 3 pure sciences, 2 maths and soccer next year. I will be more involved in soccer next year. I will also need to spend time on my other commitments such as nurturing the Rhema boys to GROW UP!! [LOL.. I also need too...] Then that might leave me with less time to study, and a typical me will be to relax all the way.. :( So how??!! Should I drop or continue, Mummy says wait and see first... But I doubt I can wait lor...

Should I drop Biology or continue with it??

If I drop:

~ I will have more time

~ I will lose one of my strong learning styles, Memorising.

If I continue:

~ I will have one more subject to study so less pressure on each subject.

~ Less time for other stuff

~ Might backfire and make me waste my time

I really don't know what to do... I can just continue cause I have got no recommendation from teachers, but I might not be able to cope. I am not forced to make a choice now. But I have asked to think. Can I make it?? I wish to score a one digit for my O'levels so I need my subjects to be very good!! I will need the time!! But should I drop and avail that time for my other subjects or continue and make it count?? But it could backfire cause I rely on my memory a lot ofr that subject and I fear it might just blackout!!! So ya.. I don't know what should I do!!

DROP OR CONTINUE PURE??!!!

But keep in mind that I want to keep my choices open, I need to have two pure science for JC at least. So I plan a pure Physics, and since I got Chong Hui help me in chem, Ya. Pure Chem too lor.. that means only Bio drop and no other choice. So should I continue Bio??

God Will Make The Way

Woohoo....

Rejoice despite my sorrows!!! Rejoice for God will show the way!!

Well, I was suppose to miss the first day of D.I Camp as there was another camp that clashes with it but now.... Woohoo!!!

Thank God, I can join you guys man!! though late as i still got training but ya, I will make it!! Lefa, I promise you :D!!! LOL.... I promise I will free myself until I can lead worship with you guys :D!! Woohoo..

So at least, I am down meaning that one obstacle is down :D I am free... Now only Eugene and Nick might not make it... But Bros, I urge you to pray coz that was what I did...

And now, I shall go into details if you want to know it....

I was doing Q.T last night and I was reading the birth of Jesus and how God has really perserved the Son of god and the Son of Man that no harm was afflicted on him.... God protected him, and the family chin that led to the birth of Jesus.

And it leads me to think, "Wow, God. Indeed when it is your will, you are make sure that it is done no matter what people try to do to destroy his works! Indeed God is in control!! That he will show the way!!" Amen!! :D Then I prayed, and really. Everything is falling into place!! God will show the way!! :D

So it leads me to sing this song: God Will Make a Way.

God will make a way,
Where there seems to be no way
He works in ways we cannot see
He will make a way for me
He will be my guide
Hold me closely to His side
With love and strength for each new day
He will make a way, He will make a way.

By a roadway in the wilderness, He'll lead me
And rivers in the desert will I see
Heaven and earth will fade
But His Word will still remain
He will do something new today.

God will make a way,
Where there seems to be no way
He works in ways we cannot see
He will make a way for me
He will be my guide
Hold me closely to His side
With love and strength for each new day
He will make a way, He will make a way

Dreading the Re-opening

Ouch!! Reality struck me down!!!

Tomorrow will be the day we get back our exam papers!! Oh no!! GG... Gotta get my funeral prepared!! LOL....

Saddening life!!!

Well, the exams period was really something for me...!!! It was the most stressful period in my whole sec 3 life.. even more stressful than organize the Scholl's Inter-house Soccer Competition, studying more -maths Test and doing History homework at the same time!!

And I feel that I did not do my best for my Exams coz I see, like very wasted... SS Paper never complete!! Wanna cry.. Then E-Maths also saddening... I just feel that it is not up to expectations lah!! I feel that I did not max out my potential....!! Though when I studied, I studied till I had hedaches le!! So I really feel I did not do my best at all!!! :(

But like Pearl told me, "Dont dread getting back my results, rather just learn from them"

So ya.."Yes, mum... I shall try :D" LOL...

At least it is not O'levels so ya, I should count myself lucky!! :D Well, so Tommorrow, I shall die but will rejoice!! I shall!!! :D

For I can rejoice For what the Lord has Done!! Getting back my results is nothing!! But eternal life!! Is so much more important!!! So much more!!!! :D

The Dimming Light

Well, my mood has change dramatically today.....

Now it is post-exams period but I feel very sad and not rejoicing....

Why?? Cause What has been giving me the strength to pull through one of my most difficult moments in life in dimming by the minutes....

When Eugene showed me the SMS today tht he might not be here in Singapore for the D.I Camp, And when Lefa broke the news to me that Nicholas might also not be in Singapore for the first 2 days of the D.I Camp And the fact that i have Icons Camp on the 18 of Dec...

My dream of P.E Band leading worship as a full band during the D.I Camp is really slowly slipping away. And it is really saddening to see us so busy!! So busy!! And next year, I believe everyone will be more busy and I will be having my O'Levels!!! So GG lah...

The one thing that I have really been hoping for is disappearing!!!

And when I search for answers of why this happens?? I only can find faults in me....

Have I been to unfocused?? Why do I feel this way?? What have I been clinging too?

All these questions pop out... And indeed, I need to have patience... (Looks like what Justin wrote in Facebook is really helpful) :D

I feel very unfocused, I need to get back on track... Fixing my eyes on the One who saves, the One who has given me salvation, the One who loves me, the One who is "So much more"....

I wanna grow deeper in love with you, like never before!!

It is Over!!

Phew!!!! It finally is over.. and now, Matthew has also finished his exams!! (Random)... LOL...

Well, the end of exams means that the intense pressure I was feeling is finally off my shoulders!! I can celebrate but unfortunately!! I got 5 camps this end of year holidays!!! all the camps are a must go... Add 2 more which I wanna go.. that brings the tally up to 7!! 7 LEH!! Wat the.. I no more holidays le!! GG!! GG!!

Well, Never mind... the examination period has really help me realise so many things... It showed me that my parents do care about me... A Lot!! It has showed me that I really do have a lot of friends!! A lot of them!! All of willing to help me :D Thanks guys :D [ Eg. I forgot to bring my stationaries to school on Wed, which was the day I was having my chemistry paper... Then since never bring pencil case equals I got no calcultor, no pens, no pencil!! GG lah.. No hope sia.. then must go do my checkup for the si€ngapore 2010 Friendship Camp, Which I think is stupid lor. So I got no time!! then stressed snd worried!! LOL... never knew I tell my friends, all so willingly lend me stuff.. I m really thnakful to you guys man!! Thanks a lot man!! :D

Well, this exam period also showed me that God grace was sufficent throughout the whole exam period especially not getting to see my PSP for 1 month.. :( At least got it back le :D Phew.. I am free!! LOL.... How I miss my PSP!!... And Hm... this exam period is really something super helpful to me as it has opened up my eyes...

Thank You, Lord :D