30 Dec 12

And so...

Well, don't really wanna share anything at all. But that when I have the most to share. Ironic but true.

Alright, perhaps just gave Nic a brief insight into stuff. 6 months is a long time, many things happened during that period and I was given the privilege to clarify the events with the him yet at the same time making myself vulnerable. Technically, I'm holding back my tears.

Gosh, I think a lot right now. Was asked to think of something to give thanks. By right, we scan through the milestones in the year to find something to say. So guess what I found!! Nothing!! Nothing big at happened to me this year was happy, joyful to be about. Not even my birthday. But there would be things to give thanks for. Small things, minor things.

I remember blogging if the one word to summarize my year. I won't repeat, I seldom do. At most, strike 3 and you are out. Find it yourself if you want. Then again, that sounds so much like me. The guy who has played his cards very closely to his chest, but not very carefully. I thought about it, I might not explicitly talked about the events that that happened daily, monthly but I have dropped hints perhaps to one person or different people. The route to discovering the mystery awaits you, the answer will never come out from my mouth though. You may dream on that happening. Then again, not many can recall what I said in January, although I do, even if so, many don't take note sweeping it off as nonsense.. :)

I love mind-games.

If you are intrigued and wanna find out, let the game begin. May the odds be with you. The path to the truth isn't easy. The not alert and sharp ones will not make it.

Under the Floodlights

Life can change in an instance. A sentence I heard today recently.

Perhaps its true, and well, it is. What makes you so sure you will wake up tomorrow? Get to see the people you love, spend time with them? You never know, perhaps the best thing that could happen to you just turned into a nightmare in a blink of an eye.

As much of my world has regain momentum and I am back to my always going out life, I managed to get some much needed alone time on the way back to Yew Tee. Surprised? Cause I made sure I was home for 3 days to rest? Ya, I'm surprised to. I didn't think much in those 3 days. I was too burnt to. So a full moon to accompany me when I was feeling "lonely". Thought maybe I could turn into a werewolf or something, oh well, dreams are dreams aren't they? Dreams are dreams, aren't they.

Some mistakes that have been committed are done, can't turn back time as much as I wish. So the consequence, I have to live with it as painful and tortuous it is. And the dream remains a dream.

But I can't continue like this. I choose to be joyful and I shall.

Updates?? Hm.. Updates. Well, Friday was pretty crazy since I was already sleep-deprived staying overnight at Yew Tee gaming then went to play a soccer match later on without food. Nice combo there, my friend. It was like a Combo courting death and later on the match, it really felt like so.

Not going to comment much on it, I did what I do best, dribble like a snake which makes people look like a fool and be super efficient doing so like dribbling the ball from one end to another. Scored 2 goals, got a few injuries, run my socks off, but it was enjoyable to tick something off my wish list. To play a soccer match under floodlights.

Again, I had the full moon to accompany me. Looking at it somehow spurs me on to continue running, until I had difficulty breathing because...

So yup. Pic or Video? Pic bah. Always video.

Thrown into Impromptu

Hi all,

And so it happens again.

Amazingly, this whole week has been a spontaneous, heart stopping week. Why? Simply because I have been literally thrown into the water and asked to swim! Like what?!

For example. On Sunday, it was suppose to be me making my re-appearance on serving on Sunday.

By right, it was hard enough because I have been flying about that I didn't have the time to faithfully practice the piano. Also, the day before was CHRISTmas@D.I. which I had a responsibility to oversee the operations and made sure a relatively good job was done. As the event ended and I could only leave at near 11pm and reach home super late, which meant no extra practice time. Then I overslept the next morning, which was brilliant cause not only could I not practice, but had to burn $$. In addition to that, Lefa and I were the only ones playing. This meant that any one mistake is amplified as there is almost no one to cover your back for you. So fingers crossed. And I thought maybe things wouldn't be so bad as I was getting the feel and beginning to believe.

Then the whole set got impromptu changed just before the service started. So all I had practiced for was going down the drain. At least it didn't cause Orchard Road to flood again. But changing was not the worse part. The worse was I did not know what the set was changed to?! I was like a blur sotong trying to play my ear. :(

By right, I sound like I am whining, but by left, it was interesting. I probably don't ever want that to happen, but it had me on my toes. I wasn't able to feel complacent with my skill level and a hint that I should practice all the 300+ songs in the WAC Songbook :/ Its an experience I could do without but may aid my development in future...

Then on Wednesday, again, I got thrown into the water. Well, it usually starts with a mishap, then the situation causes a ripple effect and I get involved. So now, on wednesday. Again, I couldn't prepare myself. Who would expect to be called upon to play the guitar when I am suppose to be a keyboardist? Logic much? In addition, I have yet to touch the guitar since the first week of A'levels. Thats like 5 Nov?! My fingers have grown used to being soft. So to play the guitar after such a long break was going to be tough as my fingers would be hurting real bad pressing the strings. Also, I can't do smooth transition after not practicing for so long. Hence, was a bit messy. Never led nor asked to come out with a set before until today. But I skipped one level. I went into come out with a set on the spot. :O

Yet, it was amazing. I just saw the song and decided I will be slightly more comfortable playing them. It seemed to have the theme love. A theme that really seems to be the Rhema word. Love.

Also, lesson to be learnt. Be prepared. Anything can happen 0.0!!

Another lesson which is more practical, and that takes a while to digest is that God uses those who are available. Since I reached at 5.30 to open the door for Honour. I was available and present and then used. Availability.

Then again, I don't know what to think of with all these impromptu acts that have affected me. A lot of first within this few days and perhaps this means I am been prepared to slowly going to take up a lot more responsibility? Dk why God has been throwing me into the water as of late. Sure has a plan, but I too blur to figure out :/

Stand Up For Our Singapore

Really wished I could be at "Stand Up for Our Singapore" today.

Stand Up for Our Singapore This Christmas! from Big Red Button on Vimeo.

But haizz.. Was wanted home, to paint the house simply cause I lost to my dad in bowling :( Lose bet lah :( Haizz.. 

Well, turns out I back to sleep again, and woke up at 5+pm.. Been sleeping a lot lately, because I have been worn out. I have given myself until Wednesday to recuperate. Hope its long enough :/ If not, I just gotta survive cause I have agreed to more stuff again. But its my holidays, of course I should be spending more time with people.

LLD.

Well, I am enjoying a day fully at home today!! Thats actually just consisted of me sleeping and eating. Literally! I woke up ate, then fell back asleep again. By my principles, that is a very unproductive day but I think I really needed it.

I have no idea what to blog actually, so much to say, its rather hard to say it on a blog. Maybe I would tell someone in person if I will be spending a lot of time with someone and they ask.. Hmm...

But say something now lah..

So.... Loved Locked Down was... quite interesting. Cannot pin-point nor know how to explain. It was a unique experience as I was seemingly very involved and then again not very involved in it. Unique, it don't know what to say..

Maybe some pictures will tell you I did enjoy myself, but was very drained from it.

Ok, it was just one. All the pics are on FB. 959 people know it! That because I have access to D.I. fanpage and can see viewership! LOL... (Look at person in the centre and realize she spells the word, "LOL")

Kk, Blessed Christmas to all :) Be kind to all yea! :)




But before I sign off. I always watch this during Christmas. Although the season dosn't fit the video...

CHRISTmas is Coming

CHRISTmas @ D.I. is tomorrow.

Actually, have much to talk about. Life has been very eventful. Hoping to use the word rather eventful in future when things slow down for me.

But I have no time, I got music prac, and CHRISTmas to look forward and take charge. I'm tired, no denying it.

LLD was..
Prayer meeting with Denny was..
Soccer was...
Driving was...
So many things was... and the list can go on. What happen to piecing the puzzle bro?

Oh well, Laska!! ^^

Just since I spent so much time listening to song.. :D

Youtube 2012

The re-mix of all the top trending videos are funny and nice.

Exams in Lala-Land

(This is an imaginary story of a professional boxer. Wanted to use a war setting but I have done so before...)

*Ring.. Ring*

Narrates: He reluctantly picks up his phone and thinks to himself, "What now??" It is his agent...

"Hello?"

"Hello my boy!! I have good news for you! I have managed to organize a match with Manny in LA!! This could be life changing and bring you career to greater heights!!"

"Wow!!", he replies. (Trying to sound hyped up for it as somewhere deep down in his heart, he hears his heart whisper, "I have heard his before..")

He then hangs down the call. "Well, looks like I have to start training again..... But first, I need to pull my act together and start believing again."

Narrates: And yes, he does. Having beaten Mayweather before. He thought that was it. He thought the floodgates had opened and his career would flourish. He really believed that it would be life-changing!! Sadly, it has been anything but that. Losing to weaker opponents has dampen his confidence. He is now broken. Why you ask? Well, he is a fighter and has been fighting crippled. With emotional pain, physical pain and etc.. Lady luck has not been on his side, but he has been fighting with all these pain all the way. However, it has reached that point that he doesn't want to do it no more. To give it up, to quit and turn his back on his love.

Scene 2:

*Punching the punching bag*

"ARGH!!" He vents his frustration. The words, "I will fight on. Fight on," rings in his head.

His agent then walks in! "My boy how are you? You seem rather out of sort lately...

(This was the chance!! But he chose not to talk..)

"Nah, I just need to get my head in the game..."

"Yea! You need to! This challenge is huge and life-changing man!! "

"Yea, I need time.." he replies, heading back to the punching bag and dishes out a fury them.

His agents looks on for a while before heading for the exit. As he walks back facing his client, the boxer looks in his direction. Knowing that his agents cares, but he just does not know what to do. He then turns back to the punching and punches it in frustration. "Why?!", raging and releasing the frustration he feels towards himself. 

Scene 3:

Slowly, he begins getting his rhythm and finding his groove. Although its slightly behind time, its better late than never. As he begins to prepare, he slowly walks into isolation and he mentally prepares himself for a fight that would him a run for his money.

As he prepares, his agent watches on and smiles watching him getting into his groove. However, he is the only one smiling. The boxer, is still struggling, not as much as before, but he still is, with eyes fixed on the punching bag and a mind that is focused.

And so, the day soon arrives as he prepares....

Scene 4:

*Crowd cheers*

The sound "Wooooooo..." can be heard even in his dressing room, and wow, is it making him nervous. The day he been waiting and working for has arrived, with its fair share of butterflies. Its mind-blowing to know that the thing you have been working for all these while has boiled down to this.

Then he hears his theme song playing, and his mind immediately goes into, "show-time, baby."

As he walks towards the ring, he hears the chanting of his name and encouragement. The butterflies increase every step, slowly but surely, the nerves are setting in.

Once each is at their corners, the announcers makes the standard announcement, "On my left, is Manny and your right is ...."

And the bell rings...

Round 1: 

The boxer starts strong, recovering fast from a wild punch that was dished out. The first few bout seem even with nothing much separating the 2 sides. But the superior technique from the opposition was evident, having made so many boxers his victim, Manny was really going strong and the next few rounds it felt like the bout was slowly but surely moving into his advantage.

But the boxer didn't give up. Although throughout each round, the thought of its almost over. "Just give up' creep into his mind. Hearing that voice, looking around your circumstances, around the ring, hearing the supporters cheering for Manny so loudly, seeing the worried look on his agent face, and the poker faces of the judges. That mixture of anxiety, stress, fear and pain is not a good potion to swallow.

Don't ask me how he did it or why he didn't give up. Perhaps he felt the sacrifices he made was too much to accept defeat so easily. That the pain he went through had to come to something that he could not leave empty-handed, that this has become "Do or Die".

As the battle prolonged, fatigue and tiredness was setting it. The bout got harder and harder for the boxer. There was even a point he almost wanted out, wanted to quit and give up on the bout. Even though Manny also got tired, the boxer seems to be in a worse of position and state as it wore on..

But the battle hasn't ended, we shall see. Let wait for part 2 to happen.. 

Busy in December?

Serve the Lord in joy, giving what we are able to at the best of our ability..

Well, thats the lines I am repeating to myself. Been busy as of late, and feeling really easily irritated at times. I don't like myself to be irritated, or enter that mode. I prefer to restrain from such a mode.

But honestly, isn't it December. Its a month for holidays. A month to play and enjoy. A month for this A'level kid to spend some time at home just nua-ing (You have no idea how long since I have been able to do so..) A month to spend time with people whom I neglected as I went into exile to prepare for a P.M.E nightmare.

And wow, did I not know how much I have neglected people. Its like everyday I am out of the house. Going shopping, play bowling, watch movie, go chalet, go play pool, and go play soccer (Wah, everyday sure will tio jio-ed on this)

Then coupled with so many other commitments and volunteer work, I may be burnt in December. Oh, the irony. Then it brings me to ponder, what are my priorities... What and who is more important? Being so busy, traveling here and there, my world hasn't slowed down! But this is different busy from the past few months! I have neglected so much as I agree to so much. Then why do I agree? Perhaps cause I have disappeared but have re-appeared,and decided to spend time with people to catch up.

God, help me to re-arrange my priorities again and seek rest and strength from you.

LLD camp is in 2 days time! Which means you gotta be excited, while I need to get down to work and start practicing and staying home more often!!

Never been better..

Havent finished my story post. Sry, that its taking a while.... Sry.... In the meantime..