Eternal Sping of Life

I am left Fuming

Well, today i did not go to church as I had a futsol tournament!! And guess wat I am left fuming.. but first lets get things straight...

We were not knock out, but proved that we are still the number one in the west!! :D

Well, things start off scrappy but okay still and we won all our match le :D Only our last group match was left!! So kickoff, and woohoo, GESS just scored and own goal... but then later Faiq los his temper and tackled their played then that guy angry then he scored like against us twice!! Wah.. worng move.. then later we of course fight back lah.. the later shafee and their keeper clash as both aim the ball the later the keeper tio injured then wat the GESS players all surround the refree call for red card.. All only know how to talk then their coaches all the same lah!! Then after the mathc, our coach say he pulling us out of the tournament!!! Wat the heck lah!! We win everyine except the Germans who we can beat if we did not lose our cool and composure!!! Wat the.. I was like super angry coz why give up our hrd work.. I wanted to come here and get medal!!! And now, you are telling me that you are going to make me give up my medal!! Wat the heck lah!!! Say save the school name.. whcioh is true such a performance was bad on our name but come on this is soccer, it is a rough game!!

So all because one one stupid game, we lose our medal..Wah I sian I tell you first.. i was like fuming.. I really angry....I was like the first time I feel so angry in soccer that such injustice is done on us!! I angry man!! but Jurongville was lousy, never even make it to the Semis!! Hah.. Coz our coach pulled us out that was why we didn't play our Semi-final. Ahhahaha....

Well, but I do not blame anyone though. I just feel very disappointed that just like that. It is over for us.. All our hardwork is gone in a moment!! I just feel that it is Injustice man!! I can tell u, GESS confirm 4th place. Becoz we pull out then they qualify. confirm lose immediately de lah!!

Well, better stop before I lose control, if you remind me of this incident, I will whscream at you coz I am still very angry!!!

Seng
9:09 PM

Soccer Camp

Wow!! God is real, and this camp proves it!! God keeps his promises!! and this camp proved it!!

Well, Day 1 was half day in Pulau Ubin coz we had school.. Award Days is dumb..make me go on stage coz top in subject.. Sian.. nearly tio caught for hair lah!!!

So the half day, we did Rafting!! LOL.. Water Games is first for our group!! LOL...

LOL.. It was kinda fun but also tiring coz we took a long time to build our raft which like the moment it go on water, it breaks part!! though it was always short-lived, it was fun.. Then soon we were asked to combine our two rafts coz it was actually a game where we see which group is able to build a raft that will bring them across the water n back... then both of us also fil the moment we go on water.. So LOL!!! Then later we build one big one but still!! I fell apart again!! then our instructor sian then say, All hang on.. then we all swim across dragging the structure of the raft across whcih is super important coz I dont know how to swim!! How I was doing was kick my legs n hanging on to the raft which was like breaking part lah.. LOL!! Super fun lor... :D

Then I remember it was raining then we had to bring our tents to shelter but instead of lifting it up, it had our bag inside so we lazy take out lah.. then we drag then after that, we found out we had holes in our tents!! GG.. I pity the people using our tents next....Lucky we got tape, then go tape in but the painful part was that we were putting our tents on rocks!! So painful lah, to sleep!! ands the food there is very little lor.. :( I suffered so much.. :( But at least there got less mosquitoes :D

Then we had a solo night walk lah... which made many scared coz the path we were going to walk alone was a place where the instructor said, "Two JC girls hve died cycling here..." So Ok, i admit it, I was a bit scared coz it was a moonless night were you cannot see lah.. only short distance then can see lh.. it was like the person in front of you suddenly disappears coz you cant see so far... Then it was like you are all alone, walking on the stretch of road where people have die there before. and you can see far. and for me, I have been slighty afraid on the dark coz last time, I can feel the movements of something last time. I had entercounted superntural things before and they usually happen in the dark when I am alone.. So ya!! I was scared abit but Jesus will never leve me os I know I was goiNeverng to walk this stretch of road with someone!! Woohoo!!

So It became my turn and I walked, I was able to see the person in front of me in a distance but soon lost sight of him so now, I was truely alone. Unable to see, then I prayed that God you light up my path, let me see the way. Then truely, something amazing happened!! The moon came out!! And soon, I saw my hands and they were glowing!! amazing man!!So AMAZING!! GOd is truely great!! I will not stumbe in the light!! Coz he brought light onto me!! and then I was able to complete with the path with confidence coz God was truely with me!! Indeed!!

"Never will I leave you nor forsake you" Hebrews 13:5

Woohoo!! So Wondeful!! :D

And then it was the next day, Well, we when on an expedition and well, I tio Vice-Cptain of my group but it was quite fun lah to walk around the whole of Pulau Ubin. I also learn how to use a compass!! :D Shiok!! then we were to sleep at the beach!! So cool!! But then it was scrapped by our coach and he told the instructors to bring us back to campside.. :( But the most important and scary part was that it was already beginning to rain and you can tell that lighting is heading towards us. then our instructor told us that theother school we saw during our experdition. One of them tio struck my lighting not recently. Then you could hear the silenced, the fear, and the shock in us. I am not sure whether it is true but it might be.... may God bless that girl if it was true.. then we quicky when back. All scared and afraid... Then halfway, one of our instructors hurted himself then we all had to carry him.. Best part. We had to be in shetler by 11.42pm that night and it was 11.40 le!! GG.. We had to be there before the storm hits the opposite side of Ubin!! Then I was like wondering "Wah.. Why must all these things happen now!! why we like now Sad life sia!!" Lucky we strong enough.. One piggyback, all the rest support!! Wah.. then we chiong back to camp.. Then it was like raining there le... LOL.. then after that only did we found out the=at the injuries were fake!! they were to test our team bond. and our mentality!! whether we will work as a team!! LOL.. and I think we succeed bah.. then also.. We found out that one of the JC gorls that our instructor told us about the previous night was actually his friend.. Oujust imagine, you were the one who ask our friend to come cycling in Ubin the later, our friend tell here.. Ouch.. I will break down and cry like all his other friend in that freak accident lor!!!

Well, then had to go and sleep back on those rocks.. :( Wanna cry..Until now, my back still pain!!

Day 3 was again clean up then zao home.. and wow!! Wat a camp man!! Sry there is no pictures coz there is no girls.. Equals no one will bother tking pictures...

So I shall sum up this camp.. Ubin is beautiful!! The mosquitoes there are less deadly too... The camp showed that God is real. It made the team really work together.. Hope this helps us next season.. :D

Seng
3:04 PM

X-Factor

Heys dudes!!

Just asking whether anyone wants to follow me go the X-Factor camp. Advice all to go!! Coz PE Band will be playing (though not sure if in full force)!! So all must go!!

So I expect to see you at the camp hor!! Whoever sees this must go.. That includes me!! :D LOL.. gotta free myself up.

SEE YOU AT THE CAMP!! X-FACTOR!! Rules!! :D

Seng
10:21 PM

Sec 3 Camp

Wow, This camp was a roller coaster ride sia!!!

I went there hoping to have fun and enjoy myself but got nothing of such sort on the first day but then everything changed on the second day and I suddenly felt sad it had to end... :(

Well, let me explain then, coz i doubt you understand....

DAY 1:
[Friday] I went too school ready for adventure!! Ready to enjoy myself!! LOL... And getting too see everyone's SS paper. How could Shao Wei beat me!! :( GG... Then I was quite fun hiding all the banned items from the teachers such as my wallet, handphone!! :D LOL... Lucky, my earpiece was not confisicated coz I forgot to hide it on myself... LOL... Lucky me... Then we boarded the bus to go to our destination and MOOD SWING!! Sian.. I turn sianed the moment I saw how sian my instructor were... Or at least one.. LOL.. I also got sian maybe cause I wanna listen to music then keep on asking us to do some "Hungry Cheer" and some other dumb remixes. So I turned sian.... Then reached there le, things became worse. The Chief Razif was so stricted that any hope of fun was taken away and thrown into the sea!! So I become more sian... then later put into the group whose Instructor also look so sian... And strict... I SUPER sian!! Sian until cannot tahan!! Then the next few hours was spent eating then preparing for campfire but it felt like it was preparing for war with our Instructor coz we also tio scolded for "what was considered just talking and nothing done" which was actually we were discussing on what to do!! Freestyle considered messy...Of course lah!! So I got sian and anrgy.. Even more as every second past... Then I was nearly going to burst for once in a camp.. Never have I lost my cool in any kind of camp.. this time, I almost... Then there was night game where they go hide Jia Jun aka mushroom. and I think that might help improve our super strained relationship with our instructor coz for the first time, she lively by a bit. Then we had fun bah.. Mushroom so heavy sia!! LOL....

Some pictures to sum up day 1: BOREDOM!!

Day 2:
[Saturaday] Phew. That day was really the total opposite of the day before!! I did the CRC!! Which was fun!! It was so high up that I could see the sea!! Cool lor.. But once you long down, Can be a bit scared to that your first step on the plank that keeps on shaking lor... But I completed in like half the time Jared took it lor.. Scared but Conquered it :D!! LOL.. The funny part was when returning bck to the ground. the fact I saw a spider on the plank.. I chiong down the log to the ground like as if I spiderman sia. Never even lose footing also.... LOL... But after that, we experienced boredom again coz the girls go do the rock climbing then you watch them, like as if watching Jared do the CRC!! But they worse, none reached the top... But wat can I say??... Then we had luch... Which is very fun actually coz we did the Jian Zhe cheer and sing the school song. (Note: then school song, we go change lyrics until hilarious!! That is why is was fun.. ) :D LOL... then we had the Low Wall, Which was painful when you have a few heavy people to lift up and get them over the wall!! Pain sia!! I pity myself and Danial. Thnk Sebest and Jonas for taking over for a while though..

Here are a few Pictures taken by Yi Qun to help explain the game...

Then we had kayaking!! Shiok man!! My boat capsized and best part was that I did not know how to swim.. Lucky got life jacket and it was fun to make the boat capsized coz by standing only on one side and rocking it sideways, ya. You confirm capsized!!! Shiok, and I was calm :D Never panic sia... :D shiok, why never let me do somemore... When asked to somplete last task. The guy see me stand, straight away say, never stay at your places, say I troublemaker :D Shiok wat LOL... That is something that does not happen anytime... LOL.. I turned crazy le... LOL..

Then it was campfire prepartion.. It was fun dncing to the song "Beat it"!! Very fun lor!!

LOL.. then campfire where Yan hong entertain us very well, his dance steps were a joke!!! LOL.. I also know how to dance like that lor...It was super funny. video in facebook!! LOL... Our dance also there... :D Campfire was fun when you see Yan Hong dance, or when you are the one dancing to the song "Beat it"..Well that was more or so the enjoyable second day in sec 3 camp...

Day 3:
We did our clean up of the pace then zao lor... And later, I got to eat Jack's Place :D

P.S i got a new found hatred for mosquitoes also... And sry for the late posts, I am always having camps now a days

Seng
9:49 PM

School Sucks!!!

Totally agreed dude!! LOL... I just agreed with myself...

Well, School currently stinks cause all you see is people emo-ing at the fact that they are dropping stream or retaining due to their poor results. But at the same time, I feel helpless. Cause I am also facing problems of my own, I don't know what should I do....

Well, It is really stressful cause I wanna do very well for my O'level yet at the same time, I want to keep my choices open as I have not decided on where do I want to go, What do I want to do....

So I really need help, I hoped that after my exams, I would be able to have more time to concentrated and focused on God, Get back on track as I feel that at times, I feel that I am off track and not in line with God.

I don't know whether to drop biology as I fear that I might not be able to cope with 3 pure sciences, 2 maths and soccer next year. I will be more involved in soccer next year. I will also need to spend time on my other commitments such as nurturing the Rhema boys to GROW UP!! [LOL.. I also need too...] Then that might leave me with less time to study, and a typical me will be to relax all the way.. :( So how??!! Should I drop or continue, Mummy says wait and see first... But I doubt I can wait lor...

Should I drop Biology or continue with it??

If I drop:

~ I will have more time

~ I will lose one of my strong learning styles, Memorising.

If I continue:

~ I will have one more subject to study so less pressure on each subject.

~ Less time for other stuff

~ Might backfire and make me waste my time

I really don't know what to do... I can just continue cause I have got no recommendation from teachers, but I might not be able to cope. I am not forced to make a choice now. But I have asked to think. Can I make it?? I wish to score a one digit for my O'levels so I need my subjects to be very good!! I will need the time!! But should I drop and avail that time for my other subjects or continue and make it count?? But it could backfire cause I rely on my memory a lot ofr that subject and I fear it might just blackout!!! So ya.. I don't know what should I do!!

DROP OR CONTINUE PURE??!!!

But keep in mind that I want to keep my choices open, I need to have two pure science for JC at least. So I plan a pure Physics, and since I got Chong Hui help me in chem, Ya. Pure Chem too lor.. that means only Bio drop and no other choice. So should I continue Bio??

Seng
8:51 PM

God Will Make The Way

Woohoo....

Rejoice despite my sorrows!!! Rejoice for God will show the way!!

Well, I was suppose to miss the first day of D.I Camp as there was another camp that clashes with it but now.... Woohoo!!!

Thank God, I can join you guys man!! though late as i still got training but ya, I will make it!! Lefa, I promise you :D!!! LOL.... I promise I will free myself until I can lead worship with you guys :D!! Woohoo..

So at least, I am down meaning that one obstacle is down :D I am free... Now only Eugene and Nick might not make it... But Bros, I urge you to pray coz that was what I did...

And now, I shall go into details if you want to know it....

I was doing Q.T last night and I was reading the birth of Jesus and how God has really perserved the Son of god and the Son of Man that no harm was afflicted on him.... God protected him, and the family chin that led to the birth of Jesus.

And it leads me to think, "Wow, God. Indeed when it is your will, you are make sure that it is done no matter what people try to do to destroy his works! Indeed God is in control!! That he will show the way!!" Amen!! :D Then I prayed, and really. Everything is falling into place!! God will show the way!! :D

So it leads me to sing this song: God Will Make a Way.

God will make a way,
Where there seems to be no way
He works in ways we cannot see
He will make a way for me
He will be my guide
Hold me closely to His side
With love and strength for each new day
He will make a way, He will make a way.

By a roadway in the wilderness, He'll lead me
And rivers in the desert will I see
Heaven and earth will fade
But His Word will still remain
He will do something new today.

Seng
9:20 PM

Dreading the Re-opening

Ouch!! Reality struck me down!!!

Tomorrow will be the day we get back our exam papers!! Oh no!! GG... Gotta get my funeral prepared!! LOL....

Saddening life!!!

Well, the exams period was really something for me...!!! It was the most stressful period in my whole sec 3 life.. even more stressful than organize the Scholl's Inter-house Soccer Competition, studying more -maths Test and doing History homework at the same time!!

And I feel that I did not do my best for my Exams coz I see, like very wasted... SS Paper never complete!! Wanna cry.. Then E-Maths also saddening... I just feel that it is not up to expectations lah!! I feel that I did not max out my potential....!! Though when I studied, I studied till I had hedaches le!! So I really feel I did not do my best at all!!! :(

But like Pearl told me, "Dont dread getting back my results, rather just learn from them"

So ya.."Yes, mum... I shall try :D" LOL...

At least it is not O'levels so ya, I should count myself lucky!! :D Well, so Tommorrow, I shall die but will rejoice!! I shall!!! :D

For I can rejoice For what the Lord has Done!! Getting back my results is nothing!! But eternal life!! Is so much more important!!! So much more!!!! :D

Seng
12:39 PM

The Dimming Light

Well, my mood has change dramatically today.....

Now it is post-exams period but I feel very sad and not rejoicing....

Why?? Cause What has been giving me the strength to pull through one of my most difficult moments in life in dimming by the minutes....

When Eugene showed me the SMS today tht he might not be here in Singapore for the D.I Camp, And when Lefa broke the news to me that Nicholas might also not be in Singapore for the first 2 days of the D.I Camp And the fact that i have Icons Camp on the 18 of Dec...

My dream of P.E Band leading worship as a full band during the D.I Camp is really slowly slipping away. And it is really saddening to see us so busy!! So busy!! And next year, I believe everyone will be more busy and I will be having my O'Levels!!! So GG lah...

The one thing that I have really been hoping for is disappearing!!!

And when I search for answers of why this happens?? I only can find faults in me....

Have I been to unfocused?? Why do I feel this way?? What have I been clinging too?

All these questions pop out... And indeed, I need to have patience... (Looks like what Justin wrote in Facebook is really helpful) :D

I feel very unfocused, I need to get back on track... Fixing my eyes on the One who saves, the One who has given me salvation, the One who loves me, the One who is "So much more"....

I wanna grow deeper in love with you, like never before!!

Seng
10:25 PM

It is Over!!

Phew!!!! It finally is over.. and now, Matthew has also finished his exams!! (Random)... LOL...

Well, the end of exams means that the intense pressure I was feeling is finally off my shoulders!! I can celebrate but unfortunately!! I got 5 camps this end of year holidays!!! all the camps are a must go... Add 2 more which I wanna go.. that brings the tally up to 7!! 7 LEH!! Wat the.. I no more holidays le!! GG!! GG!!

Well, Never mind... the examination period has really help me realise so many things... It showed me that my parents do care about me... A Lot!! It has showed me that I really do have a lot of friends!! A lot of them!! All of willing to help me :D Thanks guys :D [ Eg. I forgot to bring my stationaries to school on Wed, which was the day I was having my chemistry paper... Then since never bring pencil case equals I got no calcultor, no pens, no pencil!! GG lah.. No hope sia.. then must go do my checkup for the si€ngapore 2010 Friendship Camp, Which I think is stupid lor. So I got no time!! then stressed snd worried!! LOL... never knew I tell my friends, all so willingly lend me stuff.. I m really thnakful to you guys man!! Thanks a lot man!! :D

Well, this exam period also showed me that God grace was sufficent throughout the whole exam period especially not getting to see my PSP for 1 month.. :( At least got it back le :D Phew.. I am free!! LOL.... How I miss my PSP!!... And Hm... this exam period is really something super helpful to me as it has opened up my eyes...

Thank You, Lord :D

Seng
8:41 PM

Study Hard!!!

LOL... I am now less than 1 week away from my exams!! ARGH!! STRESSED!!!

But at least, for the first time in my life, I am beginning to study... I think I am more of building up my engine and rhythm for O'levels next year!! LOL... I really stressed out now!!

Well, I have so called re-picked up Chinese again!! Coz now I got Hong Xia to teach me!! :( LOL... It is good actually.. :D.. But the writing words, finding the meaning writing out sentences and speaking it properly can be kinda hard!! Especially since I am like CMI de.. More english speaking de... Or singlish speaking... LOL.. But never mind, since she say her new goal is for me to pass.. I shall try my best to fufill it!! LOL...

Well, gotta start studying then for the EYE!! ARGH!!

Stressed then must see is I can cope with 3 pures especially since I got soccer commitment too which gonna take up a lot of time next year!!! So Stress!! Should I combined?? Or stick with what I have now...!!

Well... Gotta decidesooner or later.. but I think later.. Exams nearby le!!

STUDY HARD!! BRING GLORY TO GOD!!

Seng
6:00 PM