God's Love for me is so mind blowing!!

Well, I was doing QT last night lah.. and will God spoke...

Hm.. It is rather mind blowing still to me. Because last night, I was redo-ing my NLK, and alos doing ODJ...

The most amazing part of it was that both talked about the same subject. I decided to do NLK and it was talking about the abundant he has promised. God did not say that there were no strings attach to the eternal life. But he said that abundant life is a life that is lived in LOVING obedience to him. Then there was a poem on how God sent his son to die for us. That love for us, that drove him to the cross. Then I was doing ODJ, and it was talking about rejoicing. Rejoicing that Jesus that died, and has risen!! And then I asked to hear his voice and 4 words formed in my head. "You are my son."

And well, it left me think how powerful is love. That he drove God to become man, and to die for such a wretch like me. How great is his love, something I am unable to comprehend!!! Is love really that powerful??

Today's worship, we say "How great is your love". So it really means something. I don't know why I am blogging this. But I am unable to comprehend such love, would you be able??

I can't imagine myself dying for somebody's sake. It is that kind of love. So strong, so powerful. I also blur!! And then just imagine you doing so much such for the person and then the person is not grateful, instead he/she just "orh" then heck care you. Imagine that pain you will feel. I think I like want to slap the person's face lah!! Imagine that pain God feels?? Yet he is still so patient. He is imba man. And I want to be able to comprehend love. To love to the extent that I would lay my life down.

And this is wat the bible says about love:

⁴Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. ⁵It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. ⁶Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. ⁷It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. - 1 Corinthians 13:4-7

So do you have such love??

Passion Rekindle?

Hm... Today, my thoughts are are jumbled up. Hm...

Well, today I went to D.I and what my eyes saw was that the shaking that is happening in D.I can really be seen. It not minor one that can be covered up but it is visible. Well, I saw that D.I has rather "shrink" as I can really see the drastic difference in attendance when Si'er was still here, and after he left. I am not saying the leader now are lousy, but the shaking is really affecting D.I...

And then I was thinking to myself, I see Rhema, we are suppose to be 10 strong but then week in week out, only a few are truly rooted. Then I think to myself, why is D.I suddenly a place that feels so dead?? Where is all the hyperness?? Where is the D.I I once knew?? I know that there are still many regular faces but where are the new souls?? Where is the passion that was burning so strongly in our hearts once?? Where is the compassion for the lost?? You can say, I feel burdened yet to nothing. Isn't that as good as not being burdened??

God has called as out to evangelise, to make disciples of all nations but we sometimes think that our needs are more the will of God and we don't not do it. Have you been guilty of it?? I know I am, I hope you admit it too, and start afresh!!

To the Christian who read this, ask yourself.

- Is the fire in my heart still burn for God??

- Do I have the compassion for the lost??

If you need your fire, your passion to be rekindle, lets ask God this day to help us!!

I remember when D.I said 100 by June. How many of us truly work towards that goal with all our heart, with your your minds, with all your strength?? Have we given our all for God, or are we still holding back something?? Did we truly believe it by faith, and did it turn into actions??!!! Because the bibles says,

But someone will say, "You have faith; I have deeds."

Show me your faith without deeds, and I will show you my faith by what I do.

You believe that there is one God. Good! Even the demons believe that—and shudder.

You foolish man, do you want evidence that faith without deeds is useless? Was not our ancestor Abraham considered righteous for what he did when he offered his son Isaac on the altar? You see that his faith and his actions were working together, and his faith was made complete by what he did. And the scripture was fulfilled that says, "Abraham believed God, and it was credited to him as righteousness,"and he was called God's friend. You see that a person is justified by what he does and not by faith alone.

In the same way, was not even Rahab the prostitute considered righteous for what she did when she gave lodging to the spies and sent them off in a different direction? As the body without the spirit is dead, so faith without deeds is dead. - James 2: 18-26

So is your backed up by actions?? My heart was very burdened to see the way things look at D.I and even if I do leave, I do not want to leave D.I is such a state!! I want to see revival!! I want to see revival!! Lets us cry out to God!! Ask him to help us, to accomplish the great commission!! I want to see Rhema produce boys whose have mountain-moving faith!! I want to see revival in D.I and in Rhema!! To every Christian!! Let us work towards such a goal!! Lets us pray to God, because this can only happen if God is with us!! If not we will not go, unless God goes with us.

Come on, bros and sis!! Let Revival take place in D.I!!

God heals the wound, not time!

A wound so deep,

A hurt so huge,

Your loss saddens his heart,

and tears start flowing down,

those that are the apples of his eye.

But no hurt is too deep,

no wound to huge,

that he can't mend,

He is healer,

but all he longs is for you...

For you...

for you to seek refuge in him,

for you to find strength in him,

for you to love once again,

for you to stand up again and worship him.

Oh man. this is random but I did a break from doing R-formula. I going siao le!! Oh man.. Make me study for an hour!! LOL... Don't ask me why the poem so random, maybe becoz I random. Idk??

Well, but this poems those reflects my thoughts. And what I know of him. I might not know all, I might be to lousy to comprehend his imba-ness, and glorious majesty but I know he is my strength, my healer and Saviour.

I think you all will again ask me why I write so emo poems. I am not. I am telling myself to embrace it with open hands. No more running, no more hiding le!! Time to let the wound be healed.

Ok, some brief information on the poem, but i doubt you see the link :D. I have learnt that the phrase, "time heals the wounds" is not true.

Some wounds might be too deep, too huge. Time only gives us a chance to forget it but if it is too big, it will reopen and you will feel that same pain. The tormenting feeling of pain and anguish.

Since time can't heal wounds, who can? Simple. GOD.

Well, 3 weeks have passed. I am still learning, I am sure the wounds are still not healed completely but are gradually healing. God is your healer, believe it or not, is a fact. You don't need to know what I am going through but the tormenting process is gradually lessening... But I want to learn what I have learnt. God is your healer, none else are like him. No one else can pull of this feat only he can do.

P.S I wrote the poem hor. After 4 years, I finally wrote another one.. So if it is lousy, dont blame me :x

Chinese O'level Results!!

Woah!! Today, I just got back my results for my O'levels!! and guess what I just passed!! Woohoo!!

After 10 years, since pri2 except for PSLE, I have always been failing chinese and it has been the most depressing subject that I might have ever taken. Failing for 10 years is not motivating, right!!??

Going into the hall gave me butterflies in my stomach. I was nervous, afraid yet peace filled my heart despite the uncertainties that were surrounding me. Isn't that great??!! I asked God in China, to help me pass my Chinese O'level Oral. I also tried going on a fast, but it did not materialised. Yet God has been faithful, with no strings attached, he passed me!!

God has shown me that he will always hear our prayers. Indeed, just like my previous post. Faith does miracles!! And this post is evident to my previous post!! I admit that I was doubtful at times, but who would not be if you have never experienced the adrenaline rushing through your body because you never passed your MT exam before?? I prayed not powerful, full of faith prayers, but prayers that requested for God divine intervention. I prayed soft prayers, asking God to help me. Because I knew he was always in control no matter where or what has happen. Forever, he reigns!! Forever and ever... Well. How faithful are you God??

Are you not?? Did you not?? And have you not?? My soft whispers were cries for help. My heart longed for your intervention. And when it looked like disaster was about to strike. You appeared, and rescued me. How faithful are you??

Well... I got it back!! Disaster never struck!! I passed!! C6!! Woohoo.. I smsed a lot of people!! My parents, my tution teacher!! Hong Xia, and a lot lah.... But Should I not have thank God first?? God longs to hear us. It was God who first helped me!! It was him, yet it feels like I abandoned him after he helped me!! He longs to her his child speak to him. It was the reason for our existence. Yet I pushed him aside. I did not thank him first!! He was not the forst person I talked too... and I feel bad...

Therefore...

"God. I thank you for your faithfulness. I thank you that you are forever in control and that you heard and answered my prayers. I pray for your forgiveness to fall upon me. I am sorry that I kind of pushed you aside. I am sorry. Help me to think of you. To put you first, before all else. Help me.. I pray.."

Have you been through what I am feeling, have you been guilty of such acts?? Ask God for forgiveness and change!! :D Be blessed!!

What can Faith Do?

What has God said about faith as small as a mustard seed?

He replied, "Because you have so little faith. I tell you the truth, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, 'Move from here to there' and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you." - Matthew 17:20

And i found this on Youtube, What can Faith do? PE Band, lets have a sleepover after Os then we watch fireproof together, then cry together. Ok maybe it would just me..

I want to watch Fireproof!!

Doing maths is depressing so I decided to browse through Facebook, then I came across this link that my mum posted... Interesting song... Hm.. So I went to listen to it, then I found Fireproof, the movie again!! Oh man, I think I must watch Fireproof because the song, "While I am Waiting" is also from that movie!! So I want watch Fireproof.

The one that I found in youtube after browsing around after clicking her link:

This the one she posted:

Are you first??

LOL.. Hi people (wif the Hong Kong ascent, blame Io Tong lah) :D

Today is Sunday and it has been pretty eventful. I when to 2 libraries (Just wait, to see the reason why I want to whack Yan Hong), Lefa, Joshua, You Fu came to house to play real and virtual soccer. We kind of got own by people stronger than us. I know them, the batch of my primary sch. People whom I had played before, but it has been a long time. They were definitely a class above most of us. Maybe better or on par with me.. but I never come compare because You fu kind of attacked his teammate, causing him to limp and feel pain at his appendix. To make things worse, he hit it twice!! Ouch!! I pity MYSELF LAH!! I also manage to pwn Yan Hong in PES 2010. Yan Hong, go train lah!! Hehe.. Pretty interesting day, and in addition to the fun, there was a A-Maths test the following day, and if peple came to my house. I confirm can't study lah!! Diaoz.. I like studied 30 mins.. Chiongster sia!! Hope can pass happy le.

Well... The reason why I wanted to whac Yan Hong is because he asked me on saturaday if I wanted to go library study, then he told me Jurong Regional Library (which is Jurong East one).. So I went there at 2, and waited for him. I waited 30 mins then decided told want wait. Go in find Endang and CX. SO I go 3rd floor, walk around 3 times. Then I said I give up, he come find me. Then I receive a call... "Hello, I think you in wrong library. Jurong Point one leh (Which is JURONG WEST lah) Wat the bleahly bleah!! In doing so, I wasted one hour. Which spoiled my entire schedule. I was supposed to return PSP to my mum (The CCK one, or non-biological one) but then Lefa, Joshua, and You Fu at my house le. Like waiting for the arrival of the Prince or something.. I was like Wat the bleah again!

So due to Yan Hong brilliant navigating skills. Or brilliant locations!! I wasted one hour.. I feel like whacking him, unfortunately, I am slow to anger. Sigh.. I won't in the end. LOL.. Well... The pain that You Fu inflicted on me painful that is kind of stop me from being able to run. And when I can't run I can't play. I kind of told you my strength in soccer le.. But I still love you, bro!! Haha... LOL.. But that is not my focus today, or this post...

Well.. Before it ws two o'clock, I followed the CCK/Yew Tee gang. not gang lah.. Only Pearl and Justin... Then I was talking and I forgot what I said le... then the interesting part has yet to come. I stopped at CCK, typical me sio, then I was telling my mum about my english oral or my prob with the word "People". LOL.. But more funny was at the end of the escalator. My mum told me this, "I give you advice when net time you get gf. She must be first priority, if not you will make her cry." Then I was like stunned lah, why so random??

Errrr.... Oooook? I tio stun le but then it helped me ask myself. If I next time got gf then she must be first priority. A bit GG ah, coz I know my style. No responsibility de, imagine my gf cry like wat the bleah.. lol.. But I doubt I will get one. Oh man that was random too!!.. Then you know usually, in CIA, I was taught God is first priority and will always be. So I asked since you would love your future gf very much, God is your first love. "Do you keep him as first priority? Do you love him more thn your GF or ur future one? Will you?? Even if your friend ask you go here there and everywhere but God wants you to be at church, do you still obey God?? Is God always first?? "

So this is my question to you, "Has God been your first priority in life?" GF or no GF, I am sure you understand what I am trying to bring across... Be bless then :D

P.S Mum says I misinterpreted the advice. And of course I did. I am still too young to comprehend it. Wakaka ( 8 years old mentally, imba sio)... But it is not the advice she gave you take away from the post. It is whether you are going to or have always place God first in your live. I am sure you got sometimes never de, so it is to help you reflect. Something like ODJ. But this one is done by me.. :x

End of the 40 days Prayer and Fast 2010

Ok.. Maybe it is time to update again le.. Wah.. I super lazy sia.. Today it the day I can spam playing PS3 le leh!! Confirm spamming, but then got tones of homework still left undone. The worse part, everyday I try complete them, I realise there was more lah.. Sian sio...

Now my to-do list has the

+ El Project

+ 2 Maths Paper

+ 1 Physics Paper

+ 1 E-Maths paper

+ 1 El Picture Discussion

+ And what the bleah sio!!

Oh man!! So much work, but I just spammed 3 games on my PS3 le... :D How I missed the nice graphics man!! How I miss pwning the teams... Unlike my PSP, my Ps3 team is mush strong... My PSP, though it is fun to raise a new generation of soccer players into the future almighty team, the process is tough, coz I playing all 17 years old players sia... :x While PS3 I get the young ones than are not so young, around 22, to play then train them since they can still develop... I have a feeling you won't get it right?? LOL.. Nvm.. Just need understand I building up a exceptionally strong team youth team in both my PS3 and PSP :D

Hehe.. I also got to give God the praises he deserves for helping me complete the 40 days prayer and fast!! It has been a long 40 days for me to finally be able to play my Ps3!! But it has enabled me to know that I cann actually restrain myself from playing!! :D

So thank you Lord, for being faithful, for helping me... Heal the wounds, help me. I pray...