My Birthday Wish

Haha..

Today Matthew asked me about my Birthday wish rather indirectly.... And well, I ain't going to state it...

But the thought of my birthday wish is like hm.. Honestly, I got a wish. Everyone does.. When I was asked to make a wish yesterday, the first thing that came into my mind was ______ .

Well, I wont stated my wish, and I doubt many people can help make it become reality.

My wish is not of materialistic desire. Nono... I don't want a soccer ball or a PSP or a new PS3 game. Or new soccer boots, or being the national champion. These are all secondary and really secondary.

Well, some of you won't be able to guess it. Because the thing I desire most, I have never really said it before, never told anyone except God. You guys can make a wild guess? But I can give you 3 tries and you still won't guess it.

So for fun joy and laughter, try and fill in the blanks:

MY GREATEST WISH IS TO _____ ______ ______ ______ ______ .

HAVE FUN GUESSING! Hehe!! But no prizes for guessing correctly :D

Happy Birthday to Myself

Oh well.. Happy Birthday to myself?

Well, I realize how pathetic this day is -.-

Frankly speaking, today does not feel like my birthday at all.. Spending my birthday enduring a tough fitness training session, and attending school really sucks. Capped off with the fact that I got 29/100 for Chinese is not really a good day for me..

Well, I have a few reason to state why:

Firstly, no one sang me the birthday song..
Secondly, there is no cake.
Thirdly, no candles.. and its a pretty lonely celebration..

But let not get all emo over this. Though, this is huge evidence that I am as good as negligible, but hey I am the apple of god's eyes. I shall be satisfied with that..

And I ain't going to believe I am negligible coz perhaps my friends are all too busy bah.. Always give the benefit of doubt what... That helps preserve unity!! Haha... Ir maybe I am just too busy but I usually never am. I can always pon sch, right?

But really, if your birthday is bad, reading this should really help cheer you up.. Haha..

Oh well, so this is the 3rd birthday in a row, that my birthday is so low key but what can I do? Stuck in my room, and celebrate it myself? Sounds like the wisest choice..

So happy 17th birthday for me? Well, I feel like 70 years old, not 17.. Really, my body is just screwed up after all the injuries I have sustained since primary school.. Beat my injury history too, if you can :P Haha!!

But then again. I can be considered 16 since it feels like my birthday really never arrived.. Or perhaps, I am 14? LOL.. Ever since, I became so involved in soccer. My birthdays feel like they never existed...

But here is the gest of the post. When you are feeling down, or thinking FML.. Read this post.. And then I believe it will make you feel better..

Haha.. Somewhat encouraging!! LOL.. Okok, need to rest for training again tmr.. after having it on thursdays and friday -.-

JJ Leadership Camp

Hi people, the JJ leadership Camp was a blast! Learnt much, enjoyed much but lacked sleep :( Overall, I would say I had a great time!! Hehe!!

Day 1: (June 1)

Honestly, I was bored, really bored on the first day. So bored that I was totally lethargic!! Oh man... In my opinion, the team-building games were not very fun at all, and maybe my "sianzzz" mindset had a bit to do with that. We also took the DISC personality test, which I thought last time liaoz!! So I was bored to death by that again :( Oh well, day 1 passed in a blink of an eye!! Alright, thats was a lie, but it was a wish and at least it did pass!! Ahaha!!

DISC Workshop

A Project during the DISC Workshop

Day 2: (June 2)

This day was really very tiring.. Bare with my whining alright. Ahaha.. Bored, complain, tiring, complain! Haha!! We had laser tag, expedition and a night hike all in the same day!! Wow! It was action-packed!! But lets start things slowly with laser tag.

Hm.. What to say about laser tag?? Hm.. Oh yes!! If Singapore ever gets into a war, the first thing you should is to phone my family up and tell them to prepare the administration for my funeral! Like I am not joking!! I died in every laser tag battle!! -.-"

Another thing I learnt from Laser Tag is my new Facebook D.P quote "Leave No Man Behind"!! I learnt this becoz I died due to my friends pang sei me in battle lah!! -.- We were suppose to be the ambush team, but things got totally wrong when they spotted us, so we ran... Ran in a direction to mis-direct them from our territory. The reason why we never stood our ground and fought was becoz we were outnumber 1:8!! But it became 1 vs all, when Nikolas and Wei Xiang somehow disappeared!! -.- Haha!!

Though I died, and well I will most likely die again in a armed battle because I will fight till I die, I enjoyed playing laser tag!! Hehe!! :D The next programme was the 7 hour long expedition whch started from 11 am to 6 pm!! Wow!! I was so tiring!! But it was good training for my shopping spree that I plan to have after my CTs :D Hehe!!

Soon I can say, shopping for hours is nothing!! Hehe!! :D Well, some pictures to better elaborate??

Hehe!! The next programme was night hike that day. It was crazy! We were so tired le, then still got a night hike!! Oh well, Night hike to me was really not a new experience. I have gone on night hike all alone and it was not scary!! Reason, My God is Bigger!!

But this time, there was a new element this time round, we had to go in pairs. Honestly, if we go in pairs, then we wont be afraid?! what is the point of night hike sia?? Interestingly, my group decided to pair up the girls and guys together so if the girl scare like blur sotong, at least still got the guy!

LOL.. So off to the night hike. LOL.. Epic moments, we chat like what sia!! LOL.. It was fun lah, not because I was with a girl walking in the jungle/ forest or a place with many trees.. That is secondary, the primary reason is simply because I got to lie down on a empty field and watch the night sky at the end of the whole hike!! Wee.. though it was a starless night but I wanna go watch the night sky somenight!! My usual place just got demolished!! I don't know why, but I like doing it. Maybe Hong Xia passed interests to me?? Hm... Oh well..

But honestly, isn't the night sky something so wonderful to watch? A painting painted by God with careful precaution? Talking about night skies, isn't the evening sky nice too? Or the sky nice? Watching the clouds move by is relaxing!! :D

Oppps.. We kinda moved from the topic. But I don't have pictures to show... Oh well... *skip*

Day 3: (June 3)

Hm.. What did we do today? Oh yes!! DRAGON BOATING!! I will not forget since its side-effects are still affecting me!!! Oh man, my skin peeled!! Reason, simple, I got sunburned!! Oh sigh....

Well, I wished I oculd do dragonboating with people who have done it before... or are experienced... So that perhaps I would be in a winning team!! Haha.. Nah.. Every experience is different, right? I experienced how to row without eyes since the water was attracted to my eyes -.- Haha!!

So some pics?

Then after that, we had our campfire!!! Haha.. My group did the noose, parody!! :D LOL. Some pictures bah.. But it was a moving campfire for some of us.. And if you attend the camp, you will have known why...

Well... That is pretty much it and wow! This is one super delayed post :/

Reflection on Love Beyond

This is going to be hard to write, "Reflection on Love Beyond"...

Well, I was part of the project, "The Greatest of these is Love".. And how wrong was I when I thought it would be the the least time consuming project!! Alamak!!! A wrong move sia!! And wow! Was I stun at the work I needed to complete in a short span of time!!

Games I/C is no easy task. Like what the bleah!

Well, honestly. I have gained much from the planning and exacution of the games!! But not so much from looking after the kids...

It was pretty new experience working with a fellow D.I guy.. It was challenging cause when I decide to use my D.I self, we tend to do things our own way... And we tend to tank or put the weight of thw whole worlds on our shoulders.. Hm.. But really thank God for Eugene!! Cause this lead-up needed the D.Is to be in charge!! Cause I was in Camp, for te lead-up and well.. Planning was pretty difficult coz there was no power socket at the camp site and I am using an Iphone!! Alamak.. So Eugene was tanking most of the the planning then.. So a big thanks to gene then..

However, just 3-4 days before the camp started!! Wholesale changes to the games sia!! Alamak!! New experience working with Hui Ling!! Wow! Never did I expect wholesale changes! Wah!! So the games finally not apprpved then we chiong planning again lah!! Wah, so at least I did not slack through the process!!

And the process of changing the games to fit a extremely difficult theme was super stress!! Wah sei!! Especially in such a short span of time!!! And not when you also got a CIP project too!! Oh mine!! It was one not fun time sia!!


Then I had my turn to stat tanking cause Eugene was pretty busy during the camp with external activities.. And wow!! I decided to tank
the preparation!! But soon Edward got me to involve the alumni and D.I people.. Oh well.. I believe the kids had fun playing the games!! Hehehe :D

Oh well, so here is my reflection on the planning process: I NEED TO LEARN NOT TO ALWAYS TANK!! GOTTA INVOLVE PEOPLE!!!!

Hm.. Now the kids part.. Ouch!! I feel so old!! Well, the kids were really hyper-active!! It been a long time since I could match that hype!! Wow!! What can I say?? But thank God my group did not have a lot of people.. So need to take care of less kidos!! :) But never did I know I would get pwn by them!! Walao!! I like get pwn in every children camp I attend or help out ah? I did not know the girls in my group will also bully me :(

Okok.. Lets give an example of what I did. Cause my name ain't really easy to remember (malay name is easier lah), I gave them a nickname to call me, which is, "Ah Seng" lah... Then the girls decided to call me "Ah Beng" -.-!! Oh come on! In what way other than the way I walk to I look like one!! -.- then they knock my head somemore! Wahsei! I want complain!! But they plYing around nia.. Sigh, AT MY EXPENSE SIA!! Oh well.. The boys like super hyper and are like wanderers!! Find one, two disappear!! I was exhausted!! But sadly, I was not really with my kids on the first day due to the preparation of the games and the second day morning, I had school :(

Wow, so the kids were really like demons in disguise. Prepared to devour you at any opportunity!! Ohno!! Hahaha.. And did I mention I hurted my waist and back in the camp!! Sigh.. Really like so old now :/ Haha!!

But like get down to the real deal. My reflection on the kids:

"Wow, looking at the kids.. How the have so much energy, of course I feel old. I feel like I have really grown. It was like a journey back into time.. Looking at me back then, then looking at the present me.. Wow, the huge change.. In character, in habits, in many things...

In the day, they are demons, but I keept thinking... And since I did not sleep at night, but watched them sleep.. I realize how much we humans want attention.. We all seek them.. The kids run around looking for them.. And though it draining, I can't fault them..

I also realize how trusting they are... Telling me about their families, their lives.. How they will believe everything you say, or most of the stuff cause usually I crap around... And how I wished I could be equally trusting. I realize that I slowly began to stop trusting people, because of the times they fail me, the times they hurted me... All those unpleasant moments, they made me start to lose trust... How we as individual need to break away from those unpalatable moments, and begin trusting.... In our God, and people...

So two things to learn... :) And the fact that I am old now :(