You are the Apple of my Eye

Hi peeps,

Today, I went to watch the movie, "you are the Apple of my Eye" with my soccer friends!! Haha! I like spend this whole week with them sia!! Even on rest days/ non-training days also go out!! Ahaha!!

Well, but that is not the main purpose of this post. Firstly, this movie is really nice!! The storyline is really moving yet also sad... While it has also some sick parts, but that aside, it is pretty good.. I might want to watch it again if I could!! Of course we others people lah...

Hm.. This is a love story movie lah!! I don't plan to spoil the show for you if you have not watched it... But as I watched this show, it remind me that this main character (male one ah) was a lot like me... Don't like to study, heck care attitude. Then because of a girl that like to pock her nose in, she forces you to do work... Remembers how Pearl took my PSP away last time, or Sheena forcing to me to study.. :/

Well, this show was very touching, and I agree, to every guy. There is that one girl that is the apple of their eye, each has his own but not everyone has a happy ending just like this show...

Some pics to see, as I see them, I know the scenes! IT REALLY IS VERY TOUCHING!! IT FELT LIKE AS THOUGH I WAS WATCHING MY OWN LIFE STORY with a few corrections and edits here and there.. But that story line ah... Haiz... Oh well, that was a long time back... I have moved on already... Still, every guy will want to find his Mrs Right, true?? :(

Logger heads!! Really!! They were!!

The guy takes the rap for the girl, so sweet!!! >.<

The girls feels grateful, she decided to coach him in his studies!!

He really does his work!!

Omomomomomo! Well, that all I plan to show, this was more or so how the story developed, much there is still much more. This is not even the climax, its just the starting I showed you.. MUST WATCH!! >.<

Playing for Main Service was...

Hi peeps, I know I have not been updating this blog regularly (like always).. :/

Well, today, I want to blog about my experience playing for main service today!! Eeks!!

Hm.. So what can I say?? (please realise that I have actually put in the lyrics of the Stand here :O ) Hm.. this was a unique experience!! The reason, I was pushed out of my comfort zone!! Really pushed out of it big time!!!

The past few days (since thursday) I have been sick, not really running a fever but feeling ill lah... Like I have a running nose, headache, diarrhea, cough, feel like vomiting, breathlessness(only after training, and was heading down to church that period where I experience it) and sorethroat!! A lot right!!! Thats way I have been spamming myself with panadol, and thats the reason, why I think I am killing myself since I have not seen the doctor, nor my parents know that I am feeling unwell... So being ill was one of the hurdles I would be facing when playing for main today!

Actually, thats the main reason. Because I have been feeling unwell, and I got the invitation by andy to serve rather late, like on thursday, I was not really able to sit at my piano and keep practicing!! Today, I went up with the lack of practice.. :( I also have been attending my soccer training despite my state of physical health, so my condition has been worsening as the day passes :/

So my previous paragraph has been telling you the difficulty I faced when preparing. Lets take out saturday where I had to skip both my breakfast and lunch to attend training, music prac, D.I, and the BBQ outreach to the BB boys( I couldnt eat the food there -.-) which my God's grace, he pulled me through!! Phew!! Thank God

Well, why did I say I was pushed out my comfort zone??

Firstly, I am not used to playing in main. Usually, I have been playing for D.I so when I was playing for main today, I felt frightened, had that 'stage-fright' feeling.... I tell you a fact, my leg was shacking when I was playing.. :/ Yes, I admit. I was afraid.... I dont have butterflies in my stomach when I am serving in D.I but in main, it was a different story :/

Secondly, Andy told me that I could not play strings/pads for the last 2 songs!! OMG!!! I was stunned!! Yes!! Becoz usually, I don't play keys. I have never done that in D.I nor anywhere... I have always been playing pads all the way, so when I was told play keys. I was stunned, yet perhaps maybe a bit excited because now, I would be taking up more percentage of the 'pizza'... :D So this would have been something new!! But why play something I am not used to in a placed that I rarely feature!! OMG!! I was pushed out of my comfort zone... Try imagine that feeling of playing some different from what you usually do in front of more people, some more with the LACK OF PRACTICE!!!! >.< OMG!!! Why this was really different, and do different makes you feel nervous and weird, and afraid!! :/ Out of my comfort zones indeed!!

The overview of my problem then? For slackers like me to read... I was sick, with many symptoms, I lacked practice, I could not do what I usually did instead had to do stuff I have never tried before, hence causing shocked within my camp.. And whoa!!

Well, how was the experience doing it then?? Hm.. It was interesting!! Very intriguing too... Ok, lets move on..

Overall, the experience was good for me because this was something new lah... Getting out of your comfort zone would definitively improve me!! But personally, I need to get this off my chest..

I THINK I PLAYED VERY BADLY!! Or by my standard, I would actually spit at myself man, seriously, way way not up to standard.. During the worship, I took very long to settle down, making a lot of blunders!! Many many many!! I was like, "Oh come on, man!!" to myself for the whole thing... My walk-down, cocked up at the end. During unending love, from the verse 1 to chorus, only mistakes.. -.- during communion, pressed so many wrong keys... And the list goes on and on.. This was perhaps the first worship set that I made so many mistakes in my life!! I feel extremely disappointed in myself!! Very very very!!

But I remember what was shared in D.I yesterday. "DO NOT LOOK AT YOURSELF AS A FAILURE, BECAUSE IN GOD'S EYES, YOU ARE NOT ONE!" (Yes, I managed to listen despite being sick!! :D ) And thank God, for the encouragement many church members gave me. Actually it more like, "Whoa, playing for main le ah.." kind of encouragement lah, I also asked if my mistakes were very obvious, many said, "no." so thank God yea.. *phew*

I remember Lefa encouraging me viz sms, saying that I was improvement, which felt like I have been rewarded for the hard work and hours I a=have spend playing my piano at home...

Read this quote yea, I really agree with it.. By moving out of my comfort zone, I am improving, I am pushing my limits, and one day, I will be playing first keys for you to hear!! Best part of the journey? I am going to show how one does not need to have a proper lesson to play to that standard!! :P

Meaningful phrases

Hi peeps!! Well, otday's training is super titring but I am awake because I need to prac for tmr!! Yupyup! Tmr is FTW!! :D :D

these few days, I really got nothing to blog about, so in order to update.. SO nice picture with extremely meaningful words.. Hoping to get inspiration for a new d.p yea!!

But do enjoy looking at them :)

P.S Stay tune for the post on USS yea!! I am trying to get the pictures!! :D Then it will be out and then you can enjoy that post :D

PW is over!! Woohoo!!

Yes lah!! Today, PW officially ended!! Which is so good!!

Well, I am still wondering if this post should be a reflective one or a short one. I think a short one bah...

Before I start, I want to thank God for good teammates lah!! Or hardworking ones!! Haha!! If not, I would have been cursing my luck for PW!! Haha!!

Hm.. This journey with JJ136 was a pleasant memory!! Because, we got a rather well? Nah, just joking lah.. I was the most irritating person in the group, but that is me. What to do?? Haha!!

I actually can't believe one year has past just like that. It feels like the journey just began yesterday. Like it was the first time we had a group meeting, and then tio appointed leader! Haha!! Don't worry, I never did my job as one!! LOL....

I still remember us doing our WR, our model for OP, practicing so many times for OP. And all the epic memories!! LOL... But it has all ended, I am to lazy to go into all the details of the memories though I can, because my brain has a rather vivid memory of the events and also because I got soccer in 30 minutes time!! EEks >.<

Well, how abt some pictures to see first?? Yea?

Well, these is the model of our strategies!! Hehe!! Nothing going to say!! :P But nice right!! See the hardwork put in!! I really do hope my effort and hardwork do pay off in the end!! Like when I get back my result, I hope to see an A!!

Alright, later people complain say this post nothing epic!! Fine, I tell you how my OP went yesterday?! :D

Haha!!

Alright, my OP was crazy!! It was a full house yo, perhaps because people always say the best save for last? Haha.. Just joking.. Yesterday, my OP had 6 teachers and 9 audience attending it! crazy right?? We had the chief moderator, external moderator and the accessers!!

LOL.. And in order to relieve stress, I started cracking jokes as we waited for it to start. Guess where I cracked them, in front of the teachers and audience because we were waiting for 2 more teachers.. And of course, made a fool of myself.. But I don't really mind... Coz I don't bother about my reputation nor looks ;)

Well, overall. I think I did well. I destroyed my model halfway through the presentation though.. Not intentionally of course!! Haha!! I truly enjoyed the experience though! Hopefully I impressed the 6 teachers!! Seriously, 6 abit too much ah!! And will do well for PW, if not ah.. WALAO SIA!!

S.H.A.P.E

Why is it so difficult to start studying again??

Haiz.. Its the holidays people!! Woohoo!! HOLIDAYS for me!! But then again, I feel like I am rotting. I trying studying, but I am not productive. Then I go and read books which I feel is more productive for me.

Well, this will be short, but I really want but am not productive in my studies now sia!! Haiz!! howhowhow??

Well, I do have my goals for this holiday. For one, I want to regain my abs back!! :( Haha!! I felt that I grew fat during my Promos period. :( :( So I will grow more buff this holiday yea!! Haha..

Then again, on second thought, I dont want be buff! Haha!! Really, I have always like my skinny frame. I can't imagine myself like Eugene, :/ I would like a well-toned body :) Yupyup... And of course, regain my abs is of importance!! haha.. I just dont want to be fat!! Haha Just joking..

So my previous pragargraph was pure random crap. Here are the real goals. I want to keep in SHAPE. Remember what pastor talked about on the first day, about us keeping in shape. This holiday, I want to be in shape, both spiritually and physically...

Hence, I am going to catch up on my reading!! :) So far, I am done with "The Grip of Grace" which I mention in my previous post and now I am now on a journey with "the Air I Breathe"..

And I hope you have planned what you want to achieve this holiday!! :D God bless yea ;)

Grace-releasers

Hi peeps!!

Today pastor talked about grace.. And how funny this actually is!! I am like embarking on the series of Grace!! Haha!!

First, I finished the book my "mum" bought for me. "The Grip of Grace" And indeed, I have learnt much grace from this book!! :D Thanks mummy!!

Then today, Pastor timothy talked about Grace. How we are meant to be grace receivers and also grace releasers!!... And today, I have to put it into action again!! Haiz... Super fast implement sia.. Haha.. Which is actually GOOD!! Haha!!

Well, today, I had a soccer match. And before I went for this match, I had a recall on "The Grip of Grace". Why? Because I was talking to Pearl about it. Random conversation FTW yea :D Haha!! Then I was telling her what this book was lah. I do think that book was a rhema word for me at that time. Cause she bought it for my Bday, and during that time, I was feeling very down. Who won't be if their CTs result are so bad and so faithless!! :( And indeed, God provides us grace yea!! :) Haha!! :D

So I kinda recapped on it, then supplemented with what Pastor had preached about, I like whoa!! almost info-overload sia!! Haha.. Nah, it was God preparing for the trial!! So lets move on to the soccer match yea?

Well, I was very frstrated with my teammates! I find it so unacceptable when people passing are like shit,k when they don't run, when they don't communicate, when they don't seem serious!! Wow!! I shouted a lot! I was really angry, fed up and you know the emotions...

Here is the trial. In a soccer match, when a person is pumped up and adrenaline hormones are highly active , he might say somethings that are inappropriate. Even Arsene Wenger (Manager of Arsenal) said so himself, as the investigation of John Terry rascism saga continues.. So when I was angry, i was shouting at my teammates to wake up! And if you have ever seen me in competitive mood, you would think I am scary enough.. Now imagine an angry me!! OMG!! That rather bad!! :/ And when you are angry, and playing a match. Its pretty hard to watch your words. I was trying to not saying anything hurtful words to my teamamates!! and I am not sure if I did, but if I remember correctly, I did not. The worse I said was,"if you all play like that, we can't even beat ACS(I)" I feel like that would have been an insult for someone who has achieve one of the things some people just dream of :/

Well, Grace people! GRACE! It occurred to me halfway to stop shouting at them, because not everyone is me. But i would admit, they gradually improved. Grace. I had to be gracious to them, I should be considerate, not giving them additional problem, I should be encouraging, I should be merciful... Pastor said these are some tips on be gracious, I will not list all but here are some:

- Be patient with people

- By the language we use when speaking to them.

- By being considerate to them

- Freely forgive

- Don't condemn and give up on them

- Emphasize with mercy, not justice.

So these came into my mind, and I began keeping my voice to myself!! Haha!! :D Haha!! Be gracious!! I know I am not perfect, and I am sure that I might not have ticked every box that pastor mentioned but I am learning. I am still learning!! Haha I believe God is molding me, and he still is.

"God, I know you are still molding me. You are still teaching me and in every event in my life. Teach me Lord, to be a grace releasers!! What I have learnt must turn into action if not I have been wasting my time. So God, it will be hard, but teach me, Lord."

Time is of the Essence

Hm... I have decided to title this, "Time is of the Essence!!" Oh ya!! This post was meant to be yesterday's post but I was exhausted yesterday after training so it has becomes today's post!

Well, nowadays my school ends about 10am.. Then training starts at around 3.30 pm!! Oh my!! That is like 5.5 hours of free time!! so on wednesday, this happened. I ended insted of 10, I ended at 9 coz I got no more lesson liaoz. So I was really free, and it occurred to me how free I suddenly felt! 5 hours is a lot of time!! And it struck me that I could be wasting my time!! Well, I tried mugging, but failed rather badly. All I did was read a few pages of my Macroeconomics notes! Then I went to eat at Mac then went back to play soccer from 1pm!! Ahaha!!!

Well, and it struck me. How have I used my time? Am I wasting my time?? I remember quitting OGL on the reason that I won't have much time but since I do now, how have I been using it??

We are living in the end times and Time is of the essence!!! So it really struck me!!

God, help me use my properly! I need time management!!

OGL Pondering

OGL.. OGL.. OGL...

How this gave me a headache! Hm... I was thinking about whether to join, then quit or not..

I really was put in a difficult position, one side of me wanted to be an OGL, another side of me did not want me to be an OGL.

Haiz.. I doubt I can fully explain this not really welcomed headache..

Hm.. The reasons why I wanted to do this because i felt it would be fun, then again everything is fun! Haha!! just joking, I where got so shallow anyhow make decision de lah!! Haha.. Hm..

This OGL decision was a fight among the big 3, Soccer, Studies and Church.

I hope all of you know about my big dream, to be crowned a national champion in Soccer. That has been my dream. Well, so i wanted to join OGL to enter head first and see who are the can play soccer the dudes and get them to join soccer. Hm.. U may be asking weren't the people just join since soccer is so popular. Well, not all I believe. I remember how I was considering joining another CCa and not soccer. But somehow I could not make up my mind and by default, soccer became my CCa -.- So not all the players will join, and in JJC, rugby since more cool and appealing to the duds leh.. Hm.. Haiz.. So I actually wanted to go and enter into the politics.

And I also wanted to go and play lah... Haha!! The same trick wont work. So here is the next reason, I need CIP hours.. Hm... My CIP have been crappy since I join soccer in secondary school.. Well, I have been so busy! So so busy! I need to study, I need to train, I need to answer God's call. He has been faithful, I can testify. I remember Love Beyond, and the CIP hours thing for the people in extreme makeover. Well, if it was me in need of CIP hours. Don't you find it funny why I chose not to help sinc I as good as did not study for CTs? erm.. Well, cause I don;t think its right to do it for CIP, I rather do it for God. I belive d.I embarked on LB to show the community God loves them not that we want CIP hours. Hm.. Oh well, just saying lah, not that anyone did extreme makeover for CIP hours.

So being an OGL, I would get like 90 hours of CIP! Which is wow! but then its not worth it because we will put in more than 90 hours of our time. So I rebutted it lor.. Haiz..

Then there are so many reasons that said no. Time, Church, Studies... 2 of my big 3 were against it. And by quitting, I think I have made the right choice. I do feel liberated yet at the same time, I am sad I wont be an OGL.. :(

But I told myself this. By being an OGL, whats does it do? Am I glorifying myself or God? I can say I can be an OGL and serve God, but almost everything under the Sun can be deemed as serving God. So beware when you say serve God. Hm.. I wanted this for myself, not for God. And then again, what are my reasons for coming to JJC. Shouldn't it be for studies? Not being an OGL. Then I got soccer, I will be rather packed with D.I and church stuff during the holidays or in December hence I decided to quit.

Well, I thought it through. It was hard, but then again, its time God be the main goal.

John 3:30
He must increase, but I must decrease.