What am I protecting? What is worth every drop of sweat that drips of my head? Its like that song, "Just give me a reason".
That has been a question I have been asking myself. I cannot go through all the takan sessions from morning to night every single day for the next 7 weeks, without having a reason to motivate and encourage me to hang in there. Yet, I cannot find a reason. Its just makes me feel so degraded. Every day I am just waiting to get pumped or punished or something unpleasant to happen to me and I need a reason to pull through and a use reason to accept all these uncalled for punishment.
Just give me a reason, just a little bit is enough to continue slogging it out. I never manged to find a reason to protect Singapore before I enlisted, even up till now... Yet, I'm still searching for that something or someone would possess that answer I seek, that reason I need.
Well, thats just a sneak peek of what are the things that are going through my head.... Haizzz...
God, guide my paths... guide my mind and soul.... Its like I'm been forcefully humiliated and crucified.
