A Week in 2010

Well, this week has really been very hard for me.. I have been stressed out too much, or maybe I have stretched myself too much in one week...

Well, School re-opened on 4 Jan and I clearly knew that O'levels was not going to be easy. I knew that this year would be tough (But never thought it was that tough!!)

Well, I could say the first day was slack coz the teacher was more or so, making us write down our goals.... And well, I do not clearly have a aim for myself this year at all, or I never actually have a aim or resolutions for myself every year.. haha.. But it is hard for me this year... Very hard or tough to cope...

Becoz I have Soccer, which takes up Mon, Wed, Fri, and sometimes Saturdays( Just like yesterday..) And for training it ends, hopefully at 7, or later usually... Then I have my studies which from now on, ends at 5.30 on Tues then 3.30 on Thurs... Then to top it off, i have other commitments such as D.I... Rhema will need my help, but I won't be a big help if I do not resolve this issue that will become a mountain in the future...

So that leaves with this.. Since my parents want to me sleep at 10 pm daily during weekdays.. I will have to oblige... So that means, on soccer days. I will have my dinner at 8 then start work at 9 to 10.. But usually I will stay up later just becoz I have too much homework.. I get 2pieces of homework from each subject per day.. And I take 8... Maybe not all give homework... but still, you can see that I have a increasing workload. with only 1 hour to complete all.. And best part is that I have a body full of fatigue that desires for rest and not more work... So that is for soccer days.. So that means I will collect up to 3 hours of studying in 3 days... 17 hours more if I am going to reach the 20 hours mark that D.I has now.. -_-" Then on days that I do not have training nor match.. I will be able to study from maybe 8-10 coz when I reach home, it will be at 6 on Tuesdays. Then dinner and down to work.. And dinner is usually at 7+.. So on Tuesdays, it is 2 hours meaning 5 hours in 4 days... Wat the.. (You can tell, there is no way I can't study for 20 hours a week, unless I give up something...) then on Thursdays. I will be home by 4.30?? Then I will have lunch.. And then do my homework at 5.30?? and wait for dinner till 7.. So that is about 1.5 hours.. then after dinner, another 2 hours... Which gives me 8.5 hours hours during the week... -_-" Quite dumb, if I continue right? This gives you a SMALL inside look to my NORMAL LIFE!!

Nvm.. I shall continue.. Saturdays... Hm.. Mornings, I hope to be able to study but unlikely coz I will most likely put my Piano Lesson on Saturdays mornings... Then that means after 12 I will study.. But sometimes I have meeting, or practice so I dont get to study.. But I do, then another 2.5 hours of studying? If I can last that long.. So I will get 11 hours :D 9 more left.. Wat the.. Totally GG... Well, then after dinner, will be home at 10?? Then Will studying from 10-11 :D Which means 12 hours if I got nothing on at all.. But seldom bah.. Then on Sundays.. That should not be a problem. I got one night to complete everything.. :D Or 4 hours actually.. Whcich means 15 hours max!! 5 hours below par.. So It shows you I really have no time.. That excludes playing and relaxation time leh.. So I will die becoz I don't have any relaxation leh.. It is hard... Or going to be very very very very very very hard for me to survive... :( Well, then If I add in relaxation time.. I can study only 7 hours a week.. If all the other stuff occur. Such as PE Meeting or Practice on the day we play.. It excludes, meeting Edward and Si'er, so ya, it is quite hard to be in my shoes...

Well, But that is not what i want to talk to you guys about.... Today, I thank God... Coz he showed me what is truly important...

This year might be very hard for me, and if I am going to do well for my O'levels. I am going to have to study a lot because I am not given to be very smart. Thus, I will have to make that sacrifices. But what can i sacrifices?? Soccer? If I quiz. I am giving up the 2 points I have worked my socks off for!! It cost me quite a lot... So Soccer is a no to sacrifice.. Studies?? Retarded question, so will not bother answering it... Then it comes to Church..And I can't believe I actually bothered to entertain them actually... Feel so ashamed.. :( But you got to understand how I feel... Well, It seems the only choice but this is my verdict.. I WILL NOT BE GIVING UP, CHRIST!! FOR ANY THING!! NOT EVEN Os!! Becoz today has told me why..Not becoz of the sermon. But God revealed to me.. I could go home at 10.30am, coz i knew God has spoken to me already... Well, this is what he revealed to me, that I believe is also going to be helpful for you...

It was when I was worshiping God, That pictures of Christ dying for me came into my mind... It then reminded me that Jesus loved me so much, just to have that relationship with us. he suffered for both you and me.. And yet, there i was. Entertaining thoughts of leaving him!! And that just showed me this.. God is something that has eternal value....(His love can save you!! His Blood has cleanse you!! But you gotta to believe in him to inherit the eternal live he has promised..) And what is O'levels, it is just something that is you need to graduate, so that you may have a bright future. But what will happen to that certificate when you die? You can't tell God,"God, I have this certificate so I can go to Heaven and live" There is no such thing!! What thing is not right.. there is no such RUBBISH!!! Well, so it helps me come to a decision. I will not give up anything.. I will trust God for my O'levels... And I will not neglect him. For he loves me... And you too!! I will continue this energy and time consuming-lifestyle, but what can I do?? I have no choice...

So this is my message " Check what you are doing?? Does it rip eternal value?? God has eternal value, but does your studies contain such value?? Know what is truly important... Choose Wisely..." With this, I shall end..

But I hope at the end of the day, you will choose correctly. Choose Christ :D But it is your choice, but make sure you make the right decision.... :D God bless.. :D