Boredom Madness

Well, I think I am not blogged for a very long time already so here are some updates then.. Well, tmr is going to be the Start of the Nationals. Against St Pats. It is not going to be easy, that is for sure, but I am willing to give my all to win the elusive crown. This is my last year, and I am desperately desiring to be crown national champion of Singapore. I told myself that I wanted to be crowned champion of Singapore before I graduate, and I am NOT going to fail my Os just to have a second chance at the prize if we achieve it this year. Thus that means, this is do or die. And ya, it means I am willing to fight for what, but I know I have O'levels to take too... But I tell myself, fight for it, then chiong O'levels... I will excel in both!! I want to excel in both but it requires a lot of hardwork and determination.....But this I must know, God is ALWAYS in control. Only by his grace will I be able to achieve the amazing feat, I hope to achieve and this will require his gr...

10 weeks already?? Wow, As I write this post, 10 weeks have officially passed!! Meaning that I time is running out as I take my O'level exams!! LOL.. Best part chinese is up first!! LOL.. GGing sia.. Well, I am surpised how 10 weeks have passed so quickly yet in those 10 weeks, so many things have happen.... In soccer, in studies, in everything lah!! Well, from such a high morale in the soccer team, The morale has dropped so low that the team hs been DISBANDED!! Wat the bleah!! I have trained so hard for my jersey then now must return, super sad sia... Bad wat can I do...... The only good thing is during the individual evaluation for me, my coachs have pointed out to me that I have more strong points than weak points :D LOL.. The best part, the words then ended the conversation is "Too bad, you are suck with this team..." LOL.. But I believe this team got hope nai.. Except, making a new team might not be the best way to prepare for nationals and I am getting ra...

Hm.. I was actually thinking about talking about my National Final experience again, but talk about so many times. I also sian le lah.. So I took time out and wrote a very reflective essay. The topic is: A time when you felt guilty.... (though I think my essay like got no link lah) Enjoy my essay :D Today, I woke up knowing that there was no school. I took out a notebook and pen and went to sit under the peach tree my aunt planted before she left for United Kingdom. I saw the wonder of the world just sitting in my backyard. With the shade, and peaceful silence and the pristine fragrance of the flowers, I soon started to reflect about myself. The world we live in passes so fast that sometimes we just go with the flow, never knowing what we are doing. But today was different, I was able to recede in that big peach tree and reflect on myself. I have always been taught to stand back up every time I fall. I am always been taught to impact the lives of others. To help one other, to lov...

Hm.. Even just writing this post is painful already.... Well, I received major, earth-shaking news on tuesday. The day before I was preparing for West-Zone Semis and Studying for Physics Test... And hm.. I think he affected me very badly coz I lost interest in everything I did.... And then my world felt like it collapsed the next day where I feel I lost everything... :( Even a sad face is not enough to comprehend the pain I feel...... Okay, maybe things aren't as bad.... but actually I feel it is... Coz I feel like I have disappointed badly, as everyone in school is like expecting us to be champions..Since we have won every match... So you gotta understand the immense pressure on us, even the principals is counting on us..... And well, we lost to Regent.... We can't blame anything.. Maybe we won used to playing on normal grass?? Maybe it was to hot since we always play at 4.30..?? Maybe everything lah!!! no point le... We lost 2-1.... No point, I am deeply sadden, I am heart-br...

Hm.. I don't really know the reason why I am tell you this, or posting this... But just to let you know, or update you on my happenings... Hm.. This is a belated post but hey, It is pretty amazing to have scored that way.... I want to thank God that his hand guided the ball into the net, but why it is so great is because it was a long range shot!! Into the TOP-CORNER!!!! Wow.... It was great because, I was not expecting to play that match as I am usually the subs, so I actually when to go and take my Chinese test instead of going for the briefing since it was usually for the starting eleven. However, I got a shock of my live when I went into the gym!! I was in the starting eleven, something I have been longing for!!! And well, I was nervous and excited, I felt like I was rushing myself to get mentally prepared for the match and I think I did so... Because I soon scored a shocker!! Fendy beat three players, but just managed to pock the ball to me, and that gave me a lot of room to r...

Woohoo!!!! We have taken revenge!!!! HONG KAH SEC - 3 v s Jurongville Sec - 1 Woohoo!!!! We have taken revenge!!!! LOL!! I just repeated that line coz I am so happy!!!! Well, All glory must be given to God!!! Which means, I can suan theJurongville people about losing to us!! Though it is tempting but this victory is from God.... It is tempting coz I feeling like rubbing salt into their wounds!!Becoz in the Soccer World for the Westside of Singapore, Hong Kahvs Jurongville have become the Big Match!!! It is like the Champions League final. I feel like doing it, becoz it was what they did to us when they luckily beat us last year in the West-Zone Final. I feel like doing it, to relieve the anger, the pain, the hurts left in me from last year defeat!! Thus, I is so tempting!!! BUT.... I gotta know my limits... And after all, this victory came from God, and I will tell you why. This match was a big match for us, becoz many of us still were unhappy a...

Hm.. Well, today, I guess.. I have learn a lot of lesson and my weaknesses have been shown... Hm.. Well, I don't really think I would like to talk about them. But if I have done any wrong, I apologize for any mistakes I have done. I am not perfect but in my weakness and imperfection, God's can work miracles!! I will try to improve myself because I got to constantly improve myself, I got to be more focus, more considerate. It is not about me but also about others. I spire to be someone who impacts lives. And I got to behave like one. I don't want to be average, someone boring but interesting. I am loud (verbally), but that is me :D I know I am not immortal, and never should I even bother attempting to be the best in everything.. Though I will always strive to be the best cause that is the kind of mindset I kinda obtain or have, due to soccer. I am going to need to be the changed!! I want to be changed!! I desire change!! That is good. But change for the better or worse?? Tha...