Boredom Madness

Hehe, if the PE dudes see this they might scold me for thinking about this... Ok, I am finding it hard to settle down into a normal schedule leh!!! Like suddenly got so much time to yourself, for the first time I can watch TV, eat a meal for 1 hour and go down and play!! HAha, at times, I still missed my old schedule but I got to look forward, maybe I will build up my reputation back downstairs?? haha.. I enjoy winning Hong Wei and my Brother tag team against me. Coz I owned them.. hehe.. Evil leh, like I can play with pressure, do skill like shiok, shoot with right leg.. :X LOL.. You understand bah.. Like playing downstair, I can slowly hopefully find back my passion for the sport, and maybe heal the wound because I doubt I will fully walk out of soccer... So, I ain't going to cry le bah. Okie, keep mind blank.. :D COz I cried enough I hope on Sunday le.. And I still got China Trip, hopefully if MT teacher allow... LOL.. LOL, so for once in my secondary school life from sec 2-4. I...

Well, Today we lost to Kent Ridge 0-2... And it ended my dream of getting the National Crown, most likely for the rest of my entire life... That is why I AM HEART-BROKEN!!! I need my PSP now!! Mum, if you ever will read this, can I get to play my psp?? Becoz I really want to get my head distracted from this matter... Don't say STUDY!!! Coz I am too heart-broken to study, let alone open a book... Well, so I really wish I could relive those wonderful moments in my Soccer life, and change those bad memories... I watched in horror as the nightmare unfolded in front of my eyes... A few days after the newspaper report the fight between SA and ACS(I), Hong Kah and Kent Ridge almost had their very own fight... I got flagged offside 6 times!! Bloody!! And how I wished I was a right-footed player just a few hours earlier becoz the ball fell nicely for a volley from my right but I totally miss it!!! And I blame myself... Well, no point crying over spilled milk now, so I will bring you through...

Well.. I think I ain't in the best of state coz I just realise I lost my self-esteem... LOL.. But it is true.. I lost my mood to do anything... That includes playing PSP and soccer and talk crap... I don't feel like doing anything... And it is interestingly awkward!!! hahah.. I will return to full throttle soon though.... Coz I will rest and see what is wrong.. I thought I was burning out but there is more than meets the eye.. haha.. but I am going to return refreshed... Ok.. You should not have read that but nvm.... LOL.. Ok.. I want to talk about the fact that God speaks to you all the time... Ok, today was awkward for me because I was like don't want do this and that .. so it affected my performance in soccer.. In terms of studies, I am forcing myself to study... SO aiya, you understand bah... Then I was handing in my work, long over-due work, then I did not write my name so I sound like I was ok.. I said: "Aiya, can tell from handwriting de lah" Io tong: ...

Weell, today is Good friday!! The day which christ dead for everyone sins.. there is a promise for many to take hold if they just return to the Lord.. Christ died so we may have live and so that you may have a relationship with him.. U are forgiven only if you return.... But I not here to give a sermon (like what Justin would do.. XP) Well, I am blogging becoz of the supernatural day I experience, not that I am like some holy guy but it is just that today I woke up with his song stuck in my head... The song my "mum" danced too the previous day in the Live Concert.. Gotta admit a bit hard to watch the dance last night coz I was pulled more to the song.. :X Ok... Got nothing to do with it, it is becoz I had the song in my head, I started to play it on the piano... Like from random, it become to the song.. Amazing... LOL.. then I found out the song title only now hence I can search for it.. It is amazing!! It was like the spirit empowered me to play it... Then another one came.....

Hm.. I am so sad, coz I am feeling rather unwell today, maybe because we had to play in rain for our National Match then it got postponed.. :( Sian.. LOL.. So that means tomorrow I will be studying for just one hour then going off to play le.. I feel like in Sports School sia, all play little studying.. haha.. Ok, but this is not what I want to talk about... I was like resting then later I recalled Saturday... And hm.. So I recalled this: My mum, Pearl lor -.-, ask me this question or at least she did ask me this... (I forgot how our conversation became until like that.. haha..) "What are 4 things you identify yourself as??" then of course I will answer lor... I said" Soccer player, Child of God, Student(reluctantly) and restless boy" Ahhaahh... yup, I said restless boy, that is why I have been so mischievous :D and so playful most of the time... For example, why do I always get chased around in school, sometimes during class time.. LOL.. But then she was actually a...

Well, I think I am not blogged for a very long time already so here are some updates then.. Well, tmr is going to be the Start of the Nationals. Against St Pats. It is not going to be easy, that is for sure, but I am willing to give my all to win the elusive crown. This is my last year, and I am desperately desiring to be crown national champion of Singapore. I told myself that I wanted to be crowned champion of Singapore before I graduate, and I am NOT going to fail my Os just to have a second chance at the prize if we achieve it this year. Thus that means, this is do or die. And ya, it means I am willing to fight for what, but I know I have O'levels to take too... But I tell myself, fight for it, then chiong O'levels... I will excel in both!! I want to excel in both but it requires a lot of hardwork and determination.....But this I must know, God is ALWAYS in control. Only by his grace will I be able to achieve the amazing feat, I hope to achieve and this will require his gr...

10 weeks already?? Wow, As I write this post, 10 weeks have officially passed!! Meaning that I time is running out as I take my O'level exams!! LOL.. Best part chinese is up first!! LOL.. GGing sia.. Well, I am surpised how 10 weeks have passed so quickly yet in those 10 weeks, so many things have happen.... In soccer, in studies, in everything lah!! Well, from such a high morale in the soccer team, The morale has dropped so low that the team hs been DISBANDED!! Wat the bleah!! I have trained so hard for my jersey then now must return, super sad sia... Bad wat can I do...... The only good thing is during the individual evaluation for me, my coachs have pointed out to me that I have more strong points than weak points :D LOL.. The best part, the words then ended the conversation is "Too bad, you are suck with this team..." LOL.. But I believe this team got hope nai.. Except, making a new team might not be the best way to prepare for nationals and I am getting ra...