Boredom Madness

The dust has settled and I recall the challenges ,of being apart from home for so long, of living independently without income and of maintaining a LDR have been really difficult, and the experiences of seeing and learning new things of different cities and countries. Perhaps its time to journal some of the journey. I remember the thoughts as I boarded the plane left, how I prayed that God will water the seeds that have been planted. Learning I can't say goodbyes well, and that my preference not to attach myself to anything as much as possible. I remember how I never took a plane for 3 years, since I was always occupied in Singapore, and my first time flying was to Europe alone on 22th Jan to Czech Republic without data in the middle of the night. What an experience. Always thought I was going to not make it to my hostel in time, and had no google map to use since my flight was delayed yet ending up at my hostel at 2am alone. By His grace, the experience will live with me...

Dear God, How blessed am I? How incredible is it that You have placed so many people that love me, and show their love to me in so many different ways. Love, I don't deserve.  How under-appreciative, am I? As the clock ticks, and the body weakness. When life throws unexpected surprises and turns your world upside down. How can thy be so self-centred. Seeking to make the next step for thy future but failing to appreciate the sacrifice others' have made. Time so precious, and so little.  Ministry is the privilege You have given me, but give me time to tend to those who have loved me. I entrust Your sheep into Your hands, as I will entrust those who have sacrificed much for me into Your hands. Have Your way, and hear my cry. You told me faith as small as a muster seed can move mountains. Help me believe, help me stand steadfast in You. Save those whose love I don't deserve.