What is the reason.
What am I protecting? What is worth every drop of sweat that drips of my head? Its like that song, "Just give me a reason". That has been a question I have been asking myself. I cannot go through all the takan sessions from morning to night every single day for the next 7 weeks, without having a reason to motivate and encourage me to hang in there. Yet, I cannot find a reason. Its just makes me feel so degraded. Every day I am just waiting to get pumped or punished or something unpleasant to happen to me and I need a reason to pull through and a use reason to accept all these uncalled for punishment. Just give me a reason, just a little bit is enough to continue slogging it out. I never manged to find a reason to protect Singapore before I enlisted, even up till now... Yet, I'm still searching for that something or someone would possess that answer I seek, that reason I need. Well, thats just a sneak peek of what are the things that are going through my head.... Ha...