Boredom Madness

It ain't about me. Lately, I have been challenged not to put myself before others but others before self. Alright, that being said, I am not a self-fish guy before this year or anything. It is just that challenge to go and help a friend as long as it is within my means. So what in within my means? It isn't just since its on the way like of thing, its doing things that cost you something, that requires you to sacrifice something, that requires to forego your pleasures and at at times your needs. Well, if I am not wrong, its just include dying for people at times. But then, the amount of sacrifice you are willing to give up is dependent on who he/she means to you. The Bible talks about them a friend in need, but I have always been like how can you help others when you cannot even actually help your own self? I already am being challenge to open up, be transparent before others. Yes, there are a lot of things stuck deep down in my body and that I will never tell anyone. Someh...

Hi peeps! Today was a very interesting day for me! I was stop my policemen today, and had my particulars taken down. Well, Wanted my address, my school, my name and wrote down all the stuff on my Student Pass. Hm. Don't ask me why man? It was epic. I was just walking down from the LAN shop at WCRC, then the policemen were coming up via the stairs. To my surprise, they asked me for my IC, then I passed them my student card. Then they were like asking me weird question like where I just came from? Was I alone? Then they scan my card to verify it sia, cool stuff sio!! Of course, I taled to them lah, like why you all want my IC sia? Then they all say, "Now was the holidays, then here got a lot of gangster.. blah blah blah.." So I was like "orh, ok lor." So that kinda ended my episode with the policemen! Hehe!! Like talk about how I felt. I was so tired that I was not even scared, I was like, "take then take lor, its not like you can do anything to me since ...

I fear a dejavu. But I got this feeling that a dejavu will occur. I fear its going to be painful, agonizingly painful, torturous. Its like going back into time, 6 years back and reliving the aftermath. The tearing apart despite wanting it so much. The separation, the hurt, the loss, all because a man got to do what a man got to do. Haizzz.. I thinks its just me who is just unlucky :( Then again, its just a feeling, but a very strong feeling. From my observation, it probably is true. I am not the best observer, but I ain't that poor as one too!! So wait and see...

Remember this rather over used quote of "Time will heal the wounds." Well, its not exactly true. Wait, it ain't true. What am I talking about! :/ What the bleah...   Time does not heal the wound, instead it just makes you forget about it. So when the memory returns, KABOOM! Yupyup, the hurt is like a knife that stab you in your heart. It is honestly only God and yourself whom can tend to the wound and heal it. I have realized that it needs oneself to heal. Why? You need to open up. So many times, I have just harden my heart, and make sure that emotions are an alien language to me. The results is that it ain't smart to do it. You can try lah, but the feeling of drilling a hole through that cement is excruciating! Once you have done so, only then can God work. He respects our decision, is gives us the freedom of choice. Even when we choose the wide path, he really is that father standing there waiting, waiting with patience, in agony, in love, for the prodigal son ...

Hi peeps... Well, April has been a horrible month, and I consider that a understatement of the month. Its been a painful month. I don't plan to elaborate because it will take a very long time to. Its was not a roller coaster, it was a plane whose engine had malfunction and it was plummeting down to Earth at an accelerating quick pace. Been asking why has a these happened to me! Like WHY!!?? I can't comprehend. When u love someone, you would want them to be happy don't you?? Why take away the joy, the thing that I tend to seek refuge in, or to vent my anger through.... And the reply I got, "Because the Broken will listen...." It was the answer to the Sahara Desert. To listen to the tour guide, or the only One that could lead me out of the desert and not get lost like the Jews who were send into wilderness and died there. And I realize that listen was just the first step into a huge challenging and trying period of my life. I thought the answer ended with ju...