Boredom Madness

Hehe, if the PE dudes see this they might scold me for thinking about this... Ok, I am finding it hard to settle down into a normal schedule leh!!! Like suddenly got so much time to yourself, for the first time I can watch TV, eat a meal for 1 hour and go down and play!! HAha, at times, I still missed my old schedule but I got to look forward, maybe I will build up my reputation back downstairs?? haha.. I enjoy winning Hong Wei and my Brother tag team against me. Coz I owned them.. hehe.. Evil leh, like I can play with pressure, do skill like shiok, shoot with right leg.. :X LOL.. You understand bah.. Like playing downstair, I can slowly hopefully find back my passion for the sport, and maybe heal the wound because I doubt I will fully walk out of soccer... So, I ain't going to cry le bah. Okie, keep mind blank.. :D COz I cried enough I hope on Sunday le.. And I still got China Trip, hopefully if MT teacher allow... LOL.. LOL, so for once in my secondary school life from sec 2-4. I...

Well, Today we lost to Kent Ridge 0-2... And it ended my dream of getting the National Crown, most likely for the rest of my entire life... That is why I AM HEART-BROKEN!!! I need my PSP now!! Mum, if you ever will read this, can I get to play my psp?? Becoz I really want to get my head distracted from this matter... Don't say STUDY!!! Coz I am too heart-broken to study, let alone open a book... Well, so I really wish I could relive those wonderful moments in my Soccer life, and change those bad memories... I watched in horror as the nightmare unfolded in front of my eyes... A few days after the newspaper report the fight between SA and ACS(I), Hong Kah and Kent Ridge almost had their very own fight... I got flagged offside 6 times!! Bloody!! And how I wished I was a right-footed player just a few hours earlier becoz the ball fell nicely for a volley from my right but I totally miss it!!! And I blame myself... Well, no point crying over spilled milk now, so I will bring you through...

Well.. I think I ain't in the best of state coz I just realise I lost my self-esteem... LOL.. But it is true.. I lost my mood to do anything... That includes playing PSP and soccer and talk crap... I don't feel like doing anything... And it is interestingly awkward!!! hahah.. I will return to full throttle soon though.... Coz I will rest and see what is wrong.. I thought I was burning out but there is more than meets the eye.. haha.. but I am going to return refreshed... Ok.. You should not have read that but nvm.... LOL.. Ok.. I want to talk about the fact that God speaks to you all the time... Ok, today was awkward for me because I was like don't want do this and that .. so it affected my performance in soccer.. In terms of studies, I am forcing myself to study... SO aiya, you understand bah... Then I was handing in my work, long over-due work, then I did not write my name so I sound like I was ok.. I said: "Aiya, can tell from handwriting de lah" Io tong: ...

Weell, today is Good friday!! The day which christ dead for everyone sins.. there is a promise for many to take hold if they just return to the Lord.. Christ died so we may have live and so that you may have a relationship with him.. U are forgiven only if you return.... But I not here to give a sermon (like what Justin would do.. XP) Well, I am blogging becoz of the supernatural day I experience, not that I am like some holy guy but it is just that today I woke up with his song stuck in my head... The song my "mum" danced too the previous day in the Live Concert.. Gotta admit a bit hard to watch the dance last night coz I was pulled more to the song.. :X Ok... Got nothing to do with it, it is becoz I had the song in my head, I started to play it on the piano... Like from random, it become to the song.. Amazing... LOL.. then I found out the song title only now hence I can search for it.. It is amazing!! It was like the spirit empowered me to play it... Then another one came.....